Blog Entry
I discovered why I’ve been struggling the last couple of months. SAD - Seasonal Affective Disorder. This is the third noticeable year that I’ve had to deal with it but it caught me by surprise because I actually sort of forgot about it but I did notice it was becoming more difficult not only to lose weight but to manage day to day. Once I realized what it was and started working with it, I started feeling better. Supposedly when you’re going through it you crave carbs. Hmmm, this might explain why I’ve been eating bagels. Um, I don’t eat bagels and even when I do, which is very rare, I only eat half. Then there was a day where I just could not get satisfied and I kept going back to the fridge and the cupboard looking for carbs. I thought, ‘Am I going crazy? Didn’t I just have waffles?’ It was pretty sad and I was really discouraged knowing that I had set a goal for myself by picking up the intensity of my workout.
Knowing that spring is around the corner has me filled with anticipation. Even waking up in the morning has become easier. I returned to my dojo after a few weeks off and not only did it feel great but I did much better than I expected, as if I hadn’t been away. Lifting again feels good too. I knew I couldn’t stay away from it too long because my body craves physical activity so I can only be but so sedentary.
Depression is real and when you’re in it, it feels like there’s no way out. The lethargy, loss of or change in appetite, lack of interest… it can be scary because you don’t recognize yourself. But I knew to hang in there because it was temporary. That’s what got me through, knowing that it would get better. When you’ve been down, the only way to go is up!
