I’m a little down today. I don’t really know what my problem is but I haven’t been doing cardio the way I need to and it’s beginning to show. The other day I did a double take on the scale. I won’t accept what it’s shown me. Maybe it’s water or something. I’ll check back in a few days altho it’s not really the scale that bugs me as much as what I see in the mirror.
I didn’t make it to fight class yesterday so i lost some good cardio time there. I did stick around for kick boxing but the fighting would have given me an extra push I needed. I tried to make up for it by jumping rope. I have several days off here and there coming up where I’ll have plenty of time to have extended cardio sessions. I should be doing some right now but I’m on this blog.
My carbs are high but I’ve been watching my food intake like never before. I’ve been doing my workouts but the cardio… I just can’t get over the hump. And my body looks like I don’t do anything at all but my wind has improved at least. And I do feel stronger. Maybe that counts for something.
I feel completely out of place on BodyBlog but I’m here for the push and inspiration and for a place that focuses on fitness. But looking at myself in the mirror, I have to ask myself am I serious about changing my body? Am I truly dedicated to this? And I want to say yes. Yes, I am! But I’m also serious about my writing and karate. They are a large part of who I am but they take up so much of my time. And unfortunately, right now, I’m a person that needs sleep–at least 7-8 hours. I am not the same person on 5 hours sleep. Not only do I look tired, I feel horrible inside and my head never seems quite clear. With a good amount of sleep and a good meal I feel great even on Wednesdays, the day after my grueling fight class and kick boxing/dance workouts. Tuesday nights I’m usually sore and aching and exhausted and much of it leaks over into the next day but I’ve been getting better with caring for my body’s needs and sleep is part of it. So Wednesdays are getting easier. But sleep really cuts into the time I could use for writing or practicing and I’m not quite comfortable with that yet. Well, I guess it is what it is for now. I’m not giving up. I just have to stay focused and do what I have to do.
And with that, I will say good bye and go get on my bike.
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