My Crazy Obsession with the Gym

NOT Fooled ya huh? Nope, just me, some broccoli and egg cooking, and a random show on the E! channel that is just background noise. I like being out and social and seeing my friends (side note: when girls get engaged… they almost disappear.. like it might be contagious!) but I would much rather go see a movie or rent one and relax at home.

This week is finally over, I thought I was going to go nuts. Almost no sleep, 2 exams and a lab write-up due, plus the first draft of my thesis and poster due. Sheesh! If I had to crunch one more number or stay extra-late again at the lab, I might just considered … nothing. It’s over and GOOD. My diet hadn’t been great, and workouts were non-existent, today is the first day I lifted in a week and my first cardio since Sunday. Just some general stuff, smith squats, deadlifts, OHP’s, hammer curls, lunges, french presses, then 12min of HIIT. I have never had such a "tiny" workout kick my ass so hard. Guess it’s the poor diet, no exercise, lack of sleep and my upcoming period. Ugh. I could just melt into my chair.

Anxious to get back on schedule with my workouts and diet. I was making good progress and would like to feel comfortable enough to post pics soon. Have a good night! Find something fun on tv

I’m kinda pissed. I used to dread squats, especially heavy squats. Paranoid that my quads would blow up even bigger than they already are. Well… I was completely proven wrong. I love my leg days, especially heavy days where the reps are no more than 8 or 10.

But wahhh… along with love came something else. Knee pain. The kind under the cap where it seems to grind or stretch or pull when you squat down and haul your ass back to the top. So I stopped and substituted the angled hack squat. WOAH NO! Same deal. I want to keep going and go "whatever"… but I’ve seen knee injuries (harsh). I’ll see how it goes… never squat in my life before the past few months, so maybe it’s just stressing my knees out a little. I’ll either go lighter to 15-20 reps or go back to the leg presses. Not loving either decision.

Loving the bloat too from that "time of the month." Why can’t it just be skipped. You just feel gross and blah and tired and snappy no matter how you try to avoid it.

Hoping to get a workout in tonight, an exam got postponed so some free time magically appeared. Maybe I’ll just do weights, go crazy, and hammer everything.

Have a good day all

I don’t have really anything to post here (and won’t for another 5 weeks) but I wanted to take a break and shut down for a few seconds before heading to sleep.

The diet has almost officially been blown, it’s my 2nd day of either a. not eating or b. eating once then a donut later in the evening. Uhm hello? Where has my brain gone? Oh, yeah, it’s too busy freaking out about everything that’s due in the next 4 days. Or worrying about why - on a molecular basis - calcium in hard water prevents soap from doing its job. How the hell is that going to make me more marketable in a few weeks?!?!?

I need to get off this "bad eating" track asap before it starts to affect my physique. It’s truly odd how when life gets unimaginably stressful and demanding, the diet is almost first to go - you don’t want to eat tuna and veggies, just good old body-loving carbs and fats. Comfort. When in reality, eating that garbage will only cause blood sugar drops : decreased brain function and energy : cravings : mood swings : fat gain and bloat : misery on top of life’s own bag of stress. So it makes more logical sense to keep the diet clean : keep the energy and blood sugar stable : prevent fat gain : at least one part of your life that isn’t threatening to turn into a train-wreck. Does this make sense? All in all, it’s just better to "stick with it" even if you don’t feel like it (and boy, do I not feel like it) because the last thing you I or anyone else would need is the unhappy reality of a body moving away from the goal.

Wonderful. Yet again I have to postpone competing. I thought on top of graduating, classes, finishing my thesis, and work, that I’d be able to complete the first 6wks of prep during the last 6wks of my education… yeah right. My workload is just too much, even just holding a part-time job is squeezing my study time too much.

I hate ‘pausing’ for a while, I felt ready, I really wanted it… but it’s just not practical. So instead I’ll try to find a show possibly in July, that way as long as I lift and keep a hold on my diet, not much damage will be done once I can resume prep full-force.

Sometimes life just gets in the way, and we can’t just do everything we want to, whenever we want. Priorities have to be set, and if one detracts from one that is more important in the long run, it’s probably best to back off until the timing is better.