The game has changed …
Well for those keeping track, as of two weeks ago, I’m no longer a moderator for Bodybuilding.com. I suppose that was going to happen sooner or later, since my life got busier, having kids and all, i suppose I haven’t been all that useful to the site anymore, and to be truthful, I did this gig nearly full time from ‘98 through ‘06 and look at me now, I really don’t have anything to show for it. Don’t get me wrong, I loved what I did, suppose I still do, and got the chance to help a great many people. I met a lot of great people as well. But when you have a family and job that keeps you busy 14 hours a day, commute included, it stops being merely about what you love, and more about what you are able to do, and I can’t do this for free anymore.
The game has changed a lot as well. So has the board. it has become a much more commercial apparatus. Understandably so, BB.com is first and foremost a business, and Ryan has done a great job with it. And I’m very glad for him. He used to always say he would take us, who put in so much time to make this place what it is, with him on the ascend. But lets face it, you can’t get much higher than this, and I’m still where I started. No resentment there, just a conclusion I had to draw.
As I’m getting back into this with the same passion I got into it 10 years ago, both in terms of research and training, I suppose it can’t hurt to take a fresh start and redetermine where my allegiances lay. And suppose right now that is with me and my family. I’ve been told too many times in the past I’m too kind for my own good. I never charged anyone a dime these past 10 years for things personal trainers and dieticians often charge 20-50 bucks an hour, and this while unlike most of them, i do have the track record to prove my worth. But I just can’t bring myself to charge people for what I love. I never thought it was fair.
I’ve left a legacy, as the Big Cat. Now its time to carve myself a future, just being Peter. Somewhere in the next two weeks me and my fiancee get to welcome our second son. Apart from a little more money to live comfortable, I suppose I have everything I need. A fiancee who loves me, soon two beautiful children, a roof over my head (even if it isn’t one of my own yet), a job I don’t hate going to and a handful of friends who are there for me. Guess its time to set me some goals, and instead of always theorizing, show the world how the science of performance and physique enhancement is such a powerful tool by demonstrating it myself. I plan to fully change my body in the coming 18 months.
Now that i’m no longer a moderator, perhaps the threshold to come here will be a little lower. So stay tuned. There is more of me to come.
