BeautyMarked’s BodyBlog

This blog really has nothing to do with fitness at all but is just a way for me to let some emotion and confusing thoughts out. If anyone wants to offer some input, that would be great. Seems that I have fallen for a friend. We’ve been friends for three years, actually, he has been my manager for the past couple of years but also a friend on the side. He has recently quit and as a result, me and him and a couple of other friends have become better friends because of it. Now, seems I am finding myself thinking more and more about him. Spending more and more time with him and wanting to spend more. Ironically, this all started with sex. Yea, a bit backwards. A couple of weeks back we both needed to get laid and after a night of talking we ended up sleeping together. It was then we started hanging out more and more, as friends, and now all this hanging out together has created these feelings, at least on my end. Oh boy. What to do? If I tell him, I am taking a huge risk. I may ruin friendships and I do not want to be responsible for breaking apart the current friendship with have with each other and our other two good friends. *sigh*

He is somewhat broken-hearted, coming out of a long term relationship a couple of months ago. Looking and looking for whose next but just wont see what’s right in front of him. What do I have to do for you to see me? Why do you have to look so far for something so damn close?

*sigh* I used to think that it was totally possibly for guys and girls to be just friends but that seems to not always work out. Seems like I’m about to lose a good friend thanks to some complicated emotions. Oh feelings! For now, I’m going to go lose my sorrows at the gym.

Thank god for the gym.