Itsy bitsy teenie weenie yellow polka dot bikini
Yesterday I booked a spontaneous trip to the Dominican Republic. Okay, well not THAT spontaneous, but I had no plans for it. I got invited last minute by a bunch of friends who were originally doing just a couples things but then decided to include our entire crew of friends. Anyways, I booked it. I am going on a tropical vacation in 25 days. Of course, this brings on the issue of the dreaded bikini. It makes me so nervous. I had planned to be in a much fitter state the next time I go down south and normally I go every June, but again, this was a spontaneous trip, coming up FAST. The whole getting in a bathing suit makes me so nervous because I know I still have a long journey to go and a lot of fat to lose however I know that I already have come far. If it wasn’t for other peoples comments and photographic evidence (I have been taking progress photos every 2 weeks), I would be really doubting my success but it looks like I’ve managed to shed roughly 10lbs (assuming I built at least 2lbs of muscle. I’ve lost 8lbs but I have been weight lifting at the same time and have noticed a lot of muscle definition…) I am not mentally prepared for this. Up until now I have been looking at my body and was proud of my accomplishments and weight loss but now I’m looking at my body in fear. Three and a half weeks is not going to get me toned. I hate this obsession - half the people I am going with are obsessing about their weight and losing as much as possible before the trip. It’s so stupid. It really is. *sigh* So why do I fall into it too? especially after I have come so far and don’t plan on stopping any time soon! I should just continue on my path to fitness the healthy way I have been so far and let go of my insecurities, fine the beauty in my strength and accomplishments and enjoy this well-deserved trip. I have come really far and have made great progress. Stupid insecurities!
January 15, 2009 at 10:01 am
You look good now- No worries. Have fun on your trip!