BeCrazy’s BodyBlog

I have a bunch of people ALWAYS asking me this.  The answer is, undoubtedly, 100%, no reservations, YES. This is the BEST money I have EVER spent in my life.

100% BETTER THAN HIRING A PERSONAL TRAINER

100% BETTER THAN TRYING TO DO IT ALONE.

It’s the real-deal people.  Get some dumbbells, a yoga mat, and a pull up bar and a bucket, cause You’re probably going to PUKE it’s so hard for the first few weeks.  You stick it out for 12-weeks AND eat clean and your fat will melt and you will build muscle like CRAZY.  I’m living proof, this thing is the REAL DEAL.

OK, so I had two bad eating-days, but the important thing is…I GOT OVER IT!  I am back on two solid weeks of clean eating and I’m starting to see another small drop in bodyfat.  Shoulders and arms are beginning to come in and I’m seeing my stomach starting to shrink.  Now I’m going to get anxious to start to see some cuts in my abs and it’s still about 10 lbs. away.  Gotta be patient and KEEP THE FAITH!!!  Still working super hard and I had a GREAT legs and back workout today.  I felt SUPER strong.  Upped my carbs a bit yesterday and I think that really really helped.  Trying to PUSH harder in my weight-training AND my cardio for the next four weeks and see how much progress I can make in this 12-week rotation.  It feels great to start to feel good about my body again.  Getting dressed in the morning is no longer depressing.  Although I still have SEVERAL pairs of jeans that are too-small, I KNOW that I will be fitting into them SOON!  YAY!  I have now lost 19 lbs. with a combo of Tosca Reno’s "Clean Eating" principles combined with my WEight Watchers (for accountability) and my p90x plus some extra cardio for my workouts.  I am trying to attack the fat from EVERY ANGLE!

So, the eating has been going SO well.  I’ve been doing Weight Watchers for about 50 days and could honestly say that I’ve stuck to it 100% with VERY few inklings of "cheating."

That all ended on Friday.  I had this fundraiser at my daughter’s school, and, despite being surrounded by CRAP FOOD all day,  I packed my clean eats and STAYED STRONG until 9pm that night.  Started snacking on some beef-jerky, one thing led to another and before I knew it, the SHARK was back.  (the shark is what I call it when I start craving crap-food….very similar to when sharks smell blood and can’t resist!)

ANYHOW, ate a cRAP LOAD of junk food, honestly, until my stomach was going to POP. (stopped journaling my food at this point, too…) looking back, it’s easy for me to see what went wrong.  My food journal was in my purse, out of sight.  And for me, out of sight, out of mind.  Like, when I can’t see the food journal, I can eat whatever I want or something…I know, STUPID.

The next day was good…managed to eat clean, then monday I ate clean all day and was CRAVING something yummy all day.  I managed to eat some spinach and chicken that I was SO not in the mood for in the afternoon.  Then, I wanted something SWEET.  I made the mistake of making bran muffins "for the kids." and then I ate batter.  And then, when they were out, I ate like 5 muffins.  I wanted to BARF.  My stomach hurt and was super-bloated, and to top it off, I still wanted MORE!  (was I low-carbing it, or PMSing or what?) I still don’t know.  I wanted to hurl myself off a cliff.

To make matters EVEN WORSE, I took progress pictures THAT MORNING and I was pleased that I was starting to see some cuts.  So, was it self-sabatoge?  I still don’t know, but I wish I could crawl into my brain sometimes…

Looking back, I made some new guidelines for myself:

1.  ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS journal my food and have my food journal OUT AND VISIBLE where I can see it.  AND WRITE EVERYTHING DOWN!

2.  NO SELF-SABATOGE!

3.  ALWAYS have some NEW, CLEAN, TASTY CHOICES in the fridge.  When this happened, I was low on food and there was no YUMMY, clean food to choose from.  Usually, I would have eaten cottage cheese and berries or made myself a smoothie or something, but I had no good fruit, no NOTHING.  This will cause me to stray to an "unclean" yummy choice.

SO, I went shopping and bought a new flat of crisp apples, some light skinny cow cheese wedges (my fave.) Cottage cheese, berries, nectarines, cucumbers, and tomatoes.  I am SO stocked and not even ONE SPECK am I tempted to cheat now that I have some tasty, healthy choices again.

There’s my rant for the day!  HEY, I still have 15 pounds to go to reach my goal and I don’t want ANYTHING to stop me, so when setbacks like this happen, it’s nice to examine WHY and circumvent any future missteps!

Wasn’t going to take any new pictures until day 60 of my program (I’m on day 50 now) but hey, why not?  I can finally see some progress, and it’s also depressing to think that the last time I did my P90X program, I saw HUGE changes at day 60.  Well, what can I say?  I started out 10 lbs. heavier this time, so my progress is a bit behind.  I’m still happy that I see changes and that I’m starting to see my arm muscles reappear and I’m starting to see a waist come back.  My legs are SLOWLY shrinking and I’m happy that I’m making progress!  My Christmastime, I should be at my goal weight.  It will be nice to start out the "new year" already AT my new year’s resolution!

Doing my P90X program religiously for 45 days and started Weight Watchers 30 days ago.  Just weighed in on Saturday, and I’m down 15.4 pounds.  MAN, I am LOVING weight watchers right now!  And, of course, all of YOU on bodyspace and I’ve gleaned tips and experience from over the years!  I am ON FIRE and I’m NOT STOPPING even AFTER I reach my goal (which is in 17 pounds, by the way!)

YEA!!!  Weight Watchers really does work!  If you are eating clean, working your butt off, and STILL not seeing results, try it, it worked for me.  I’ve been struggling to get off 25 pounds for the last YEAR and I couldn’t BUDGE the scale until I joined.  Portion Control and Accountability are the key here.  Just KNOWING that you have to go weigh-in every week keeps you accountable and I have been 100% faithful at sticking TO and WRITING DOWN all my eating/points.  It WORKS!  I am only 15 pounds away from my goal!!!

So, I really know a TON about nutrition, so why would I join WW?  Simple.  I wasn’t losing weight and I was desperate to find out why.  Two words:  PORTION CONTROL.  I was eating "clean" but I was eating too much.  I’ve been trying to lose 20 lbs for A YEAR and finally, I decided, HEY, I’m going to freaking join WW.  I’ll do my clean "bodybuilding" type eating, but I’ll count points and see if the darn thing works.  I’m desperate.

Well, I’m happy to report that the FIRST WEEK I lost 5.6 pounds and the second week I lost 3.7 pounds.  I am ecstatic.  From now on, I’m a WW BELIEVER!!!  I’m also working my BUTT off doing P90X six days a week, drinking my water, taking my ALC 600 and choline and inositol, lifting hard, etc…but I was doing all that before.  The only thing that has changed in basically my portions.  Wow.  I’m glad I finally found something that will work for me.  I really believe that I’ll have reached my goal weight by Christmas or sooner, and that is cause for celebration!!!!

Trying to get back on here after a loooong break!  Just started a new workout program w/ my neighbor and we’re helping each other eat clean and stay accountable.  Been 100% clean and journaling all week and it feels AWESOME!  My goal is to get back into my cute jeans by Halloween!  I feel strong physically and mentally and that is a great feeling!!!

Today is my weigh-in day.  Learned a good lesson.  Don’t have your cheat day right before your weigh-in day unless you want to get DEPRESSED!!!

Yesterday wasn’t really a "cheat" day, I stayed 100% clean with my eats, but at Sunday dinner, I DID have an extra piece of lean pork roast and I STUFFED myself with my mom’s cabbage salad.  It was also clean, just a little olive oil and then lemon on the whole thing, but the point is, I STUFFED myself.  I stopped eating at 5pm and drank water all night, but I was still stuffed when i got in bed at 10pm.

It’s hard when you’ve been an overeater before to STOP EATING when you’re satisfied, not stuffed.  It’s a lesson I’m still learning.  Sometimes you just crave being, well, FULL!!!

Anyhow, after last night, I knew I wasn’t going to like my weigh-in.  I did SOOOO awesome all week with my water and food and my workouts and i thought for sure I’d be down 2 pounds and I was only down 1/2 pound.

Live and learn.

Again, just like always, learning things the hard way over here!

The good news is, I can see my arms leaning out and that’s the first place I start losing, so even though my weight isn’t really dropping yet, I know my Bodyfat is.

Thanks to all you bodyspacers out there leaving encouraging comments for me.  It helps me more than you all know, you guys rock!!!

ROCK ON this week ya’ll, eat clean, drink your water, and workout HARD.  all it takes is time and faith and patience and you WILL reach your goals!!!

DH rented Michael Clayton and we watched it last night until 11pm (even though I VOWED to be in bed by 9pm!)

After the movie was over, I was complaining to him about how he always keeps me up and it’s hard to stay up late when I get up so early. He told me that it’s just plain "abnormal!" to get up at 5am and I said to him,"SINCE WHEN did you want to be like everyone else??"

Then, I did the normal Steph Stuff:

"Honey, do you want a fat wife or a skinny wife?"

Scott:  "A Skinny wife."

Me:  "so HELP ME get to bed early so I can GET UP early and be a CUTE, SKINNY WIFE FOR YOU!!!"

Scott:  (sheepishly)  "OK, I’ll try."

Me:  "aren’t you always saying that YOU need to start working out??"

Scott:  "Yeah, but 5am is too early!"

Me:  "NOT if you get to bed at a decent time and stop renting movies every weeknight!!"

Scott:  "I know, you’re right.  Maybe someday I’ll start to go to bed and wake up early with you."

Me: (thinking) I used to be like that. "SOMEDAY" I’ll start being consistent. Someday I’ll start eating clean and journaling my food. Someday, I’ll commit 100% to this thing. Someday…

Then, last year it CLICKED.   SOMEDAY was never going to come. I HAD to make someday HAPPEN TODAY otherwise, I’ll wake up one day when I’m 72 years old and think,"Why did I wait for someday? Why didn’t I just DO IT and enjoy my body and my health and do the things I want to do while I’m young???

If any of you are like methen you’re guilty of saying no to opportunities and vacations JUST BECAUSE you don’t like how you’re doing to look doing it.

FOR EXAMPLE:

Something in my mind clicked a couple of summers ago when I was on a family vacation with my hubby and all his brothers and everyone was climbing up this cliff and jumping off a ropeswing into the water below. My sister in law did it and my hubby looked at me like, ‘why don’t you go?’ and I thought, "why don’t I???"

I told him that I didn’t feel like it.

The real truth was  THAT I felt too fat to stand up in front of everyone and do it. I drove back to our condo and I was steaming mad at myself. That night, everyone went to some hot pots (hot springs) and I said I was tired. Why? I didn’t want to be in my bathing suit in front of all his skinny brothers. They are all fit (one is a personal trainer) and most of them are into bodybuilding and I just felt plain DUMB being all fat in front of them.

Same goes for rock climbing. used to love to do it, but everytime friends asked us to go, I made up an excuse for why I couldn’t. The truth? I didn’t want them to see my fat booty squishing out the harness. It’s so dumb, but it’s the truth! I wanted NOTHING MORE than to climb and be free and have fun and NOT TO WORRY the entire time about what everyone is thinking about MY BUTT!!!!

I WAS ASHAMED OF MY BODY AND it was preventing me from living my life, but most importantly, it was preventing me from being ME.

I’ve ALWAYS been the daredevil in my family. I grew up in a family of all boys and I was always the first one to jump in the water and waterski or cliffjump or whatever it was. Then, I had a couple kids, gained weight, and became…. BORING.

The worst part of it was that I KNOW the daredevil TRY-ANYTHING part of me was part of what my husband fell in love with and I knew I was letting him down. I was also letting myself down.

There’s my rant for the day.  Do this to FIND YOURSELF again.

DO IT to live your life again.

DO IT so you’ll stop saying NO to opportunities because you’re afraid of how you’ll LOOK while you’re doing them!!!

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There’s my ranting for the day everyone! I’m sorry, but I just have to type what’s in my head!!! It helps me figure out my life!!!

I woke up at 5am this morning and about DIED I was so tired. I did Shoulders and Arms, and then the new Abs/Core Plus but it wasn’t my best workout ever. I was just wasted!

I am determined to start getting my butt in bed earlier cause my body is just plain NOT GETTING ENOUGH REST and I can’t keep up this program without proper rest!

So, if any of you girls are doing the same thing, let’s add to our challenge  GET GOOD SLEEP!!!  It’s one of the things I struggle with the most.

For any of you who were posting here last year, I did the X and gave myself NO EXCUSES. I got up at 5am no matter what and I got pneumonia. I swear it was because I was working out so hard and just plain not getting enough rest. I pushed through the tiredness and I needed to focus more on my recovery. So, I’m going to try to not make that same mistake again!!!