BeCrazy’s BodyBlog

Last night, after a day of "perfect" eating, I made my family grilled cheese sandwiches. Who knows what happened, but I couldn’t resist.  My kids wouldn’t eat them, so I started my telling myself "I’ll just have 1/4 of one…that won’t hurt."  Then, 1/4 became a whole one and then a whole one became 1 and 1/2 grilled cheese sandwiches on this super heavy wheat bread.  Oh yeah, and let’s not forget the 4 oz. of sharp cheddar I ate WHILE I was making them.  I got REALLY sick and bloated and then felt like a pile of CRAP all night, so of course, I drank 1/2 of a banana shake my husband made.  Hey, I already messed up big time, so I might as well make myself completely miserable, right?

I had a hard time falling asleep because I was SO full and my stomach was HATNG me.  If I was able to make myself throw up, I would have, just to get it out.  I was SO full and miserable.  Woke up this morning and it was PLYO day (of course).  Nothing like JUMPING UP AND DOWN with a stomach full of food.   I wanted to just sit down and cry.  WHY when I am doing so well, do I mess up?

Well, halfway through the workout, it began to digest and I finished STRONG.  Then, I did extra legs.  I’m going to drink LOTS to water today to try to wash it all through my system so I feel somewhat normal tomorrow.

I really wanted to sleep in today, I didn’t want to see my bloated stomach in my workout mirror, so that is my accomplishment today.  I DID it.  I got my workout over with and now I’m totally pumped and ready for a GREAT eating/UNbloated stomach day!

Hey, the road to my goals has NEVER been perfect, but at least I keep chugging away!  One day, I WILL get there!  This was just a small stumbling block!

I WILL OVERCOME!

I have a bunch of people ALWAYS asking me this.  The answer is, undoubtedly, 100%, no reservations, YES. This is the BEST money I have EVER spent in my life.

100% BETTER THAN HIRING A PERSONAL TRAINER

100% BETTER THAN TRYING TO DO IT ALONE.

It’s the real-deal people.  Get some dumbbells, a yoga mat, and a pull up bar and a bucket, cause You’re probably going to PUKE it’s so hard for the first few weeks.  You stick it out for 12-weeks AND eat clean and your fat will melt and you will build muscle like CRAZY.  I’m living proof, this thing is the REAL DEAL.

OK, so I had two bad eating-days, but the important thing is…I GOT OVER IT!  I am back on two solid weeks of clean eating and I’m starting to see another small drop in bodyfat.  Shoulders and arms are beginning to come in and I’m seeing my stomach starting to shrink.  Now I’m going to get anxious to start to see some cuts in my abs and it’s still about 10 lbs. away.  Gotta be patient and KEEP THE FAITH!!!  Still working super hard and I had a GREAT legs and back workout today.  I felt SUPER strong.  Upped my carbs a bit yesterday and I think that really really helped.  Trying to PUSH harder in my weight-training AND my cardio for the next four weeks and see how much progress I can make in this 12-week rotation.  It feels great to start to feel good about my body again.  Getting dressed in the morning is no longer depressing.  Although I still have SEVERAL pairs of jeans that are too-small, I KNOW that I will be fitting into them SOON!  YAY!  I have now lost 19 lbs. with a combo of Tosca Reno’s "Clean Eating" principles combined with my WEight Watchers (for accountability) and my p90x plus some extra cardio for my workouts.  I am trying to attack the fat from EVERY ANGLE!

So, the eating has been going SO well.  I’ve been doing Weight Watchers for about 50 days and could honestly say that I’ve stuck to it 100% with VERY few inklings of "cheating."

That all ended on Friday.  I had this fundraiser at my daughter’s school, and, despite being surrounded by CRAP FOOD all day,  I packed my clean eats and STAYED STRONG until 9pm that night.  Started snacking on some beef-jerky, one thing led to another and before I knew it, the SHARK was back.  (the shark is what I call it when I start craving crap-food….very similar to when sharks smell blood and can’t resist!)

ANYHOW, ate a cRAP LOAD of junk food, honestly, until my stomach was going to POP. (stopped journaling my food at this point, too…) looking back, it’s easy for me to see what went wrong.  My food journal was in my purse, out of sight.  And for me, out of sight, out of mind.  Like, when I can’t see the food journal, I can eat whatever I want or something…I know, STUPID.

The next day was good…managed to eat clean, then monday I ate clean all day and was CRAVING something yummy all day.  I managed to eat some spinach and chicken that I was SO not in the mood for in the afternoon.  Then, I wanted something SWEET.  I made the mistake of making bran muffins "for the kids." and then I ate batter.  And then, when they were out, I ate like 5 muffins.  I wanted to BARF.  My stomach hurt and was super-bloated, and to top it off, I still wanted MORE!  (was I low-carbing it, or PMSing or what?) I still don’t know.  I wanted to hurl myself off a cliff.

To make matters EVEN WORSE, I took progress pictures THAT MORNING and I was pleased that I was starting to see some cuts.  So, was it self-sabatoge?  I still don’t know, but I wish I could crawl into my brain sometimes…

Looking back, I made some new guidelines for myself:

1.  ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS journal my food and have my food journal OUT AND VISIBLE where I can see it.  AND WRITE EVERYTHING DOWN!

2.  NO SELF-SABATOGE!

3.  ALWAYS have some NEW, CLEAN, TASTY CHOICES in the fridge.  When this happened, I was low on food and there was no YUMMY, clean food to choose from.  Usually, I would have eaten cottage cheese and berries or made myself a smoothie or something, but I had no good fruit, no NOTHING.  This will cause me to stray to an "unclean" yummy choice.

SO, I went shopping and bought a new flat of crisp apples, some light skinny cow cheese wedges (my fave.) Cottage cheese, berries, nectarines, cucumbers, and tomatoes.  I am SO stocked and not even ONE SPECK am I tempted to cheat now that I have some tasty, healthy choices again.

There’s my rant for the day!  HEY, I still have 15 pounds to go to reach my goal and I don’t want ANYTHING to stop me, so when setbacks like this happen, it’s nice to examine WHY and circumvent any future missteps!

Wasn’t going to take any new pictures until day 60 of my program (I’m on day 50 now) but hey, why not?  I can finally see some progress, and it’s also depressing to think that the last time I did my P90X program, I saw HUGE changes at day 60.  Well, what can I say?  I started out 10 lbs. heavier this time, so my progress is a bit behind.  I’m still happy that I see changes and that I’m starting to see my arm muscles reappear and I’m starting to see a waist come back.  My legs are SLOWLY shrinking and I’m happy that I’m making progress!  My Christmastime, I should be at my goal weight.  It will be nice to start out the "new year" already AT my new year’s resolution!

Doing my P90X program religiously for 45 days and started Weight Watchers 30 days ago.  Just weighed in on Saturday, and I’m down 15.4 pounds.  MAN, I am LOVING weight watchers right now!  And, of course, all of YOU on bodyspace and I’ve gleaned tips and experience from over the years!  I am ON FIRE and I’m NOT STOPPING even AFTER I reach my goal (which is in 17 pounds, by the way!)

YEA!!!  Weight Watchers really does work!  If you are eating clean, working your butt off, and STILL not seeing results, try it, it worked for me.  I’ve been struggling to get off 25 pounds for the last YEAR and I couldn’t BUDGE the scale until I joined.  Portion Control and Accountability are the key here.  Just KNOWING that you have to go weigh-in every week keeps you accountable and I have been 100% faithful at sticking TO and WRITING DOWN all my eating/points.  It WORKS!  I am only 15 pounds away from my goal!!!