BeCrazy’s BodyBlog

I’m back in the same boat I was in the exact same time last year.  All I can say is that I have learned a valuable lesson about myself and my bodytype.  I have learned that in order to maintain my results and my weight loss, I have to continue to count calories and journal my food religiously.

It SUCKS and I HATE doing it, but if I’m not super-strict with my food, I gain the weight right back in as little as a month which STINKS when I have to practically BEAT MY BODY UP to get the weight off!!!!

My new goal:

To reach 130 pounds and MAINTAIN that weight within a 5-pound range for a YEAR.  this is something I’ve NEVER been able to do before and there’s no reason that I shouldn’t be able to do it now.  I’ve educated myself about food and weight training and know it’s not a mystery how to do it.  It just HARD, but at least I KNOW how hard it is!!!

I’ve been doing doubles (a second cardio session at night) on my bike trainer to burn off some extra calories.  I am weighing still around 151, so I have 21 pounds to go to reach my goal weight.  With persistence, patience, determination and FAITH, I KNOW I will reach my goals.  Sometimes it’s just as simple as BELIEVING you can do it and I BELIEVE that I can.  Anything is possible.  It all comes down to what you’re willing to SACRIFICE.

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It may not seem like a big deal, but 3 days straight of clean eating has been a major victory for me!  I had SO fallen off the wagon that I didn’t know if I could EVER get back on!!!

Took some new "before" pics which I am too emotional to post right now.  Maybe I’ll post them on the same day I post my day 60 photos, so I don’t want to cry!

 All in all, I have found my motivation again, and THAT is a good thing:)

OK, so I was a big liar!  Didn’t realize how the holidays would rake me over the coals!  I ate clean, then ate crap on alternating days and realize that it is a GREAT way to GAIN 10 pounds!

I am not going to lie…I’ve been finding it REALLY difficult to get and keep myself motivated in the last couple of months.  I’ve just been treading water.  But today, I went through a bunch of my tips and ideas about losing weight and getting in shape with some of my neighbors and I was surprised and how much it helped ME find the FIRE again!

So, thanks Andersons!  I think you helped ME more than I helped you guys!  So, I’m taking my OWN advice, charting out a PROGRAM, getting out my FOOD JOURNAL, powercooking tomorrow and starting to get HARDCORE again, cause I’m only happy when I’m doing what I know I should be doing.

(besides that, I REALLY want to fit back into some smaller jeans, thank you very much!)  Getting REALLY sick of seeing my reflection in the mirror lately.

So, I’m going back to what I KNOW works.

Eating clean, charting out my calories (1400 daily) doing my P90X rotation and adding in extra cardio whenever I can, FINISHING up with all my eating at 7pm, DRINKING more water, EATING more veggies, and working out HARD!!!  Here I go, I’m good at failing and then picking myself up and starting over.  I feel like that’s all I do, but at least I never give up.