BeCrazy’s BodyBlog

Today started off with Plyo (my personal favorite…NOT!) and then I hit the leggies hard for another 30 minutes of standing leg work and ankle-weight work.  It was lovely!

Yesterday my eats were 100% clean and today is the same.  Lots of water, lots of clean food=happiness!  Still looking HUGE and puffy and YUCK in the mirror, but with time, that will change.  I even have back fat and love handles.  It’s not pretty.

Bought some frozen turkey breasts at Costco yesterday and BBQed them today.  They were a little expensive, but they were delicious!

Did great w/ my eats today, feeling proud.  No w/o yet.  Run tonight?

Hubby wants to go sleepover at my MIL’s house and I want to run and then do yoga.  I’m such a party pooper!:)

Well, trying to SLAM my head full of "slow and steady wins the race" cause right now I really feel like starving myself thin so I can wear my skinny clothes sooner!

I’m off to unload the dishwasher…urrggh.

Why do I think that "once I’m to my goal weight" I can go back to my old eating habits and not gain weight?  It’s so frustrating to me.

 Then, here’s my favorite…the whole "I’ll start my diet tomorrow, so eat until I’m good and stuffed tonight" mentality.  NOT COOL.  That is a SUREFIRE way to pack on some extra pounds….yet this is what I’ve been doing for the past few months.

 I just reread Tosca Reno’s Eat Clean Diet book and I love that lady.  I SOOO agree with her whole mentality towards eating.  I have also been guilty of buying some stuff for the kids that is not clean (like granola bars, etc…) and I can totally resist them, until I get sharky. (explanation later).  Then, when I’m sharky, I find them and eat them.  I need to stop buying stuff for my kids that’s not good for them (OR ME.)  Even though they can "get away with it" right now, they are developing their habits now.

Sharky:  When you eat something you shouldn’t (a.k.a. just ONE bite of cookie dough) and you get the "Taste" for sugar….just like the shark gets the taste for blood….I am perfectly FINE w/o sugar until I taste a bit and then WATCH OUT!!!  It’s "dun-un….dun…un….dun-un…." the SHARK starts CIRCLING…..looking for MORE!!!!!

Anyhow, so I’m committing to live a lifestyle and committing to that lifestyle for my FAMily, also.  That is not to say that we won’t ever have sugar or sweets around…I just don’t want it to be a normal, everyday food.  I want whole, healthy, clean foods to dominate my kids’ plates and taste buds!

155 lbs.  Whoa, guess it was all that european chocolate my mom brought home from her trip.  I mean, holy Schnikes!  I know I’ll lose 5-6 lbs. right off the bat w/ clean eating for a few days, but I found myself wondering this morning…how did I get here again?  That’s just a few lbs. away from my "before-befores" from a few years ago.

Read Bahamaman’s blog and really felt a connection.  Just DECIDE to be healthy and live a healthy lifestyle.  Sounds easy enough.  I have a tendency to be super duper strict, and then eat everything for a few days.  Need to just realize that it’s a LIFESTYLE, not a diet and just stick to my clean food that makes me feel and look good.

Been doing alot of soul-searching the last month or so, trying to figure out what I want and what I can maintain.  Read another ladies’ blog that lost alot of weight for a contest and also put on 20 lbs. pretty fast from rebound.  I want to lose the weight and maintain.  Don’t want to get down so low that I bounce right back up, so it’s got to be slow and steady.

I literally have no clothes that fit.  I threw out all my bigger clothes and it’s so hard when everything is tight, makes me feel claustrophobic all day, I hate it.  i also hate that heavy feeling.  Felt so nice when I was in my 130’s.  I felt so free and light and good.

Have to remember that when I start on my bad eating.  Have to remember how gross I feel afterwards.

I think I’m going to take a break from my P90X system for a few months and focus on doing cardio and whole-body lighter weight training w/o’s.  It goes against everything I believe in, but I’ve built alot of muscle in the last six months and I think I can maintain it w/o lifting heavy and my body needs a little break.  I’ll go back to it in the fall after I lose this weight, but I think I’m going to enjoy my summertime activities (running/biking/hiking) while I can and then go back to my turbojam, bike trainer and heavy weights when it gets cold outside again.

I’m also thinking of getting my ACE personal training certification and starting a business from home where I can train ladies from my neighborhood.  Help them learn about clean eating and reshaping your body w/ weights.  It’s worked wonders for me.  That is where I get my motivation, from helping other succeed and teaching them what I’ve learned.

I also want to make a more detailed blog of my thoughts and feelings in losing this 30 pounds.  It will help me to be able to go back and read it later.  Today I weigh 155 and my goal weight is 125.  Think I can do this in 4-5 months if I am consistent.

I love bodyspace, everyone’s insights are invaluable to helping me succeed!

Been eating 100% clean for two weeks straight and doing "doubles" for my w/o’s.  I’m SPENT, so cranky, hungry, and tired, but I can feel my body on the verge of making some great changes, so that is keeping me going!

Still plugging away, doing my p90x thang and extra cardio.  Trying to work off some extra pounds i gained in the last few months.  Spent the entire week in Alabama last week.  My brother’s baby died of SIDS, it was heartbreaking.  No workouts/funeral food didn’t help matters in my dept, either.  It was one of those times I could have cared less to be honest.

But, I’ve been paying for it, as none of my clothes fit right now.  My plan is to get in my 130’s by September again.  Gotta get back into those cute, small jeans.  It was fun to wear those.  fun enought that I’m willing to endure the being hungry and grumpy again for a couple of months to get there!