Banca’s BodyBlog

OK, So I’m getting quite frustrated with the way people treat me when it comes to my lifestyle. If i’m out with my friends, I get bashed for ordering something like egg-whites and veggies and not hot wings and fries like everyone else. I get told that I’m wierd and crazy! Also, If I say that I was at the gym that day, I get asked (in a degrading and annoyed tone) "weren’t you there yesterday?" and I respond with "yea, and the day before too!" and I get a sigh and a rolling of the eyes in response. What is with that??

The biggest one, just yesterday, is when my sister picked me up from the gym. In the car she asks "since when did you become such a health freak overnight?" Truth is, I’ve been this way for years, but it’s since this past October that I’ve really gotten into it and done a lot of research and started going to the gym all the time. So I tell her all this and her response is "well, you know it’s not going to last. You’re like this now, going to the gym all the time, eating healthy, but in two years, you won’t be like this at all." 

I was amazed! I didn’t know what to say I was so angry.  This is not a phase, It’s a lifestyle. I am choosing to educate myself and be healthy and take care of my mind and body unlike most of the people I know. I really couldn’t just yell at her and be angry because she is overweight and takes offense anytime I say things like that and thinks that I’m directing them at her. I know that her being angry at me for being the way i am is really a reflection of the anger she feels towards herself for NOT being this way. The same goes for all of my friends. They just want to make me feel bad and make me feel as if I’m doing something wrong in order to make themselves feel better.  Because when everyone is chowing down cheeseburgers, fries, cake and cookies, it feels ok, because everyone is doing it. BUT when you have that one person who chooses to eat something healthy and fulfilling, they feel as if their wrongfullness has been blatantly pointed out and they’re angry that they can’t hide behind the veil of shared self-destruction. I happen to be that person, and I get hell for it.

It’s a slight reassurance, knowing that it all comes from their low self-esteems and their jealousy, but still, I’d like to go out with my friends and family and not put up with the assaults. I need to meet people who share my ideals and my way of thinking. I am very lucky, I might add, that I do have a boyfriend who is maybe not as stict as I am with the way I eat, but does for the most part agree with me. He is the one person I can go to who will not try to tempt me to eat what i shouldn’t and who, when I get excited to go to the gym, is right next to me with as much enthusiasm to go himself. I love it, and I’m glad I at least have SOMEONE around me who understands. it’s very relieving and provides an escape of some sort. I think It’s very important to have someone like that in your life.

I know that at this point, all I can do is reassure myself that I’m doing great things and that those people don’t matter. I just need to turn the other cheek and keep doing what I’m doing. Keep going strong! I’m happy, and healthy, and I have goals to reach in all aspects of my life that i’m going to reach no matter what. and that’s that.

PS. I am now on the way to being certified as a PT! I’m very excited about it and one of the best parts is when I tell my friends and family… the very same people who bashed me for being "too healthy" are the ones who say, "Oh, maybe you can train me!" Hah, sure I’d be glad to. If they’re willing to understand and accept that the way i am, is the way they need to be in order to see any results. But obviously, they don’t like it because they yell at me for it. Very interesting…

This entry was posted on Friday, January 11th, 2008 at 10:46 am and is filed under Other. You can follow any responses to this entry through the RSS 2.0 feed. You can leave a response, or trackback from your own site.