Popst-show Blues!!!
I have finally come to grips with somethings and feel like I can show my face again on bodyspace. I did the fool ya’ll after my show. Eating all kinds of junk, half ass working out and just kickin it. Then I started looking at myself and I didn’t like what I was seeing. Did I stop, no I kept eating, then drinking and half ass working out! Today is the first day that I’ve been on Body space since Oct 2nd. Do you know how much damage I’ve done in that time? Alot! But the good news is that I didn’t stay there. With the help of friends like D.Melanie and Air Harp and Making-A-Change Ms. Kassandre, I’ve admitted to myself that I f’ed up and now I am ready to move on. I haven’t felt this good about myself in a while and even though I have made my next competition prep to be almost as hard as my 1st, I’m ok. I know I’ll have to hit my diet like a champ with lil room for error. I know I’ll have to hit the iron harder than I ever have b4, and I know I’ll have to get my butt back on the track 3 to 4 times a week, and run it like my life depends on it! I’m cool with that. Being a new competitior, I was freakin out and Dawn told me, don’t be so hard on yourself, "WE’VE ALL BEEN THERE!" That did it for me. I felt ashamed for no reason like people where looking at me saying, man she did all that work and gained it all right back. That’s why I wasn’t on BB.com or posting pics and updates! Well my fat ass is back ladies and gents and I’m on a mission once again. This lifestyle is no joke, and you have to comitt to it b4, after and during competition season, off season, winter season, summer season, ALWAYS! I learned that the hard way but its cool. At least I learned it. Thank you Dawn for all your help.. Kassandre you are a true inspiration, you know exactly how it should be done. No messing around! Harp, your video and words of encouragement helped me more than you realize. I haven’t felt this confident about myself since I got off stage back in August! I’m back people….FOR GOOD!
In His Love,
Christi V.
AKA
BabyBeFit38
October 27, 2009 at 12:50 pm
Hi there! I looked at your progress pictures and your October 2 pics are not as far off from your Comp. Pics. as you think they are. You just look fuller. Oct. 2 pics are a FAR cry from your "before" pics! You still look great! Don’t be so hard on yourself, from all I read, I think it’s natural to go through this phase after your competition - but now you’re ready to go again! you go girl! Go and attack that next competition!
October 27, 2009 at 12:58 pm
KC,
Thanks Lady. Well my Oct 2nd pics where almost 4 wks ago so I’ve done some addtional damange that you dont’ see yet. Will post pics tonight. But I’m ok with it, I did it can’t take it back but I can get rid of it!
October 27, 2009 at 1:18 pm
Now thats the attitude we’ve all come to know. We all fall off every now and then, but you made the right decision to get back into it. If its motivation thats holding you back just visualize how you felt being up on that stage. Just the rush of that thought should get the fire burning. Good luck to you.
Peace!
October 27, 2009 at 1:46 pm
Thanks Lex. I am feeling pretty good right now! Visualizing the end result; better than last time, that’s what I am concentrating on!
October 27, 2009 at 6:51 pm
WELCOME BACK Christi! ~DawnMelanie aka ‘Diva Dawn’ *smile*
October 27, 2009 at 8:36 pm
Im feeling this cuz i did the same thing after my first comp in May and picked up to date about 20 pounds. I think we have to make it a point to check in with each other. Valerie Berttinelli has a new ook out called finding it and that what it sounds like what we neeto do is find wat makes us keep self destructing! I so appreciate MAC and others on here because they make us to realize that we are real!
October 27, 2009 at 9:24 pm
Get back on the horse–I was a cereal killer for a few weeks and when i saw my coach–ouch. This is all about learning. You never get to see the ‘after’ after the infamous ‘after’ pictures–it takes work and you are doing it!
October 28, 2009 at 3:25 pm
Welcome back!
October 29, 2009 at 10:17 am
Thanks everyone..its good to be back!
November 18, 2009 at 9:42 am
Good luck with your next goal!!!