INSIDE THE MIND OF BOSSCHIK247

So I am a low carb junkie.  It seems to be the only way for me to drop weight.  Even when I am heavily training I do not lose weight unless my carb count is low I am talking like under 40 grams per day.  My problem comes becuase I cannot sustain this low level of carbs indefinately but I do not want my weight loss to stall.  I have to find a way around this…..I am also starting to clean my diet up….it’s hard but I have to take this thing day by day…anything else and I become overwhelmed.  My preliminary solution to my problem eat clean and watch the types of carbs i am eating.  I also need to increase the amount of protien I am getting-striving for at least 200g per day.  I guess I have to incorporate more lean meats and an extra protien shake in there…..I am so not looking forward to that.  So I will have a protien shake in the morning before work in addition to two boiled eggs, another @ 3PM  and then the last after my workout.  I know I can do this it is just a matter of getting back on track and basically automating my diet.  Can anyone out there provide their daily menu so that I can see if I am on the right track?  Thanks! 

I went to the gym today.  I weight trained before doing 45 minutes of steady state cardio (boring). But it did stick in a couple of rounds of jumping rope in between my sets.  I figure it could only help.  In all it was a good session. I told myself that I would do all the exercises that break me but are the best (i.e-smith machine squats, and deadlifts).  By tommorow I probably will not be able to walk without hobbling.  Afterward I went to the store to gather the food I will need for this week-so that I don’t have a chance to cheat.  I finally picked up some salmon.  I don’t know what I am going to do with it.  Thinking about a nice marinade.  I haven’t had it in years and then it was grilled.  So we will see.  I have been thinking about ways to increase my water consumption throughout the day.  I figure the easiest way is to actually take a bottle into work- instead of waiting till I get to work to start drinking.  Hey-every little bit counts right.  I also need to keep better workout records….but one step @ a time. 

I went back to the gym last night after a 6-8 week hiatus.   I got there did 45 minutes of cardio and then hit the weights a little.  The thing is….I don’t even know why I took such an extended break…the hardest part is getting there. It seems I would rather sit down after work and "rest" for the rest of the night when really that is the last thing I need.  My job is not stressful. I sit all day so to come home and sit some more-that is just too much sitting.  I need to get my azz in the gym-even if I am not feeling like it and give myself at least an hour in there.  30 minutes of HIT and 30 minutes of weight training.  That is not so much to ask of myself.  These years are ticking away and I don’t want my mental health to start faltering due to my weight gain-it is a slippery slope for me.  But I totally feel better when my diet is in check-becuase I at least feel like my workouts mean something.  If I am eating crappy I start thinking-"why work out-you just ate crap anyway"  therefore I don’t go.  I am finding that my thoughts are really what is holding me back.  Everytime I lose a little my mind or thoughts pull me back to that slacking mode.  Well I will just have to train my thoughts to do other things and not be so self destructive.  That’s my plan.

I changed my weight stats.  OMG.  I have gained so much since last year.  I have to get on my ****.  This is riduculous. This is the heaviest I have ever been……208lbs.  Disgusted.

OMG! I am so hurting.  I have been trying to keep the intensity level up in my training which means I am do little rest between set of various exercises.  I have done two workouts like this so far and I can tell you it’s like I haven’t even been working out for the last couple of years.  I like this type of training though, but until I get use to it I may need to schedule more rest days I feel drained.  The muscle pain did not start to hit me until 10 AM this morning and I just know that it will be getting worse as the day progresses.  But for the most part I can’t wait to get back in the gym tonight to hit those legs hard. 

Espion

I ain’t even gonna lie.  I cheated last night!  Fridays are my usual cheat days, but yesterday I just couldn’t resist the chicken wings, various varieties.  Now nothing is wrong with a little cheat now and then, but I can tell you after eating really clean and drinking a ton of water for the last three weeks a  I know that humans are not made to thrive on junk food. You just can not constantly eat like that and think you are going to be "da shit"  I have finally found that out.  So I was throughly enjoying my cluck clucks when I realized that my diet has to always be in the forfront of my mind.  I must remain mindful or else it can all go downhill fast.  So I finish the wings, no doubt I also had the regualar ranch and bluecheese to go with them, I proceed to mess with the cookie dough I bought earlier for my daughter.  That’s when  the stomach started hurting and I knew I had to stop.  At that point I was like "O.K you messed up just a little bit more than you anticipated-STOP IT NOW!"  So I did.  I drank water the rest of the night.  I vowed to pack my lunch for work and just keep it pimpin…So I am happy to report I am back on track.  Protein shake this morning. Apple for my snack, Sandwich on wheat, tuna pack, two more protein shakes and some chicken or fish this evening.  I just can’t let go of the progress that is starting to happen at a fairly rapid pace.  I can’t wait.  I am hitting the gym tonight to work it all out.  Those wings will there (until next time) but those damn cookies have got to go.  Do I hear a protein shake calling my name….

Peace.

Espion

So I have set two mini goals for this week.  I am looking to turn them more into habits than anything.  First is to drink at least 1 gallon of water a day.  I am hoping the extra water will facilitate in the weight loss.  I have started off good so far. I am on #4 of the 6.4 20oz bottles I have to drink.  My second goal is to get at least 8 hours of sleep these next 5 days.  I must say I am getting pretty gung ho about getting my shit together.  Everything that I have been trying to implement over the last couple of weeks are turning out to be not so demanding after all.  Yes, sometimes I cheat, but it is usually on a specified day and I don’t go overboard becuase I don’t want to undo everything that I have trained for. 

Ohh!  I also started taking a creatine mix for pre-workout (it is on my supplements used area on Bodyspace).  I got the mix becuase I figure I can get the carbs and creatine in all at once.  I am looking forward to seeing how this affects my training stamina.  I think I will also get the pure creatine monohydrate and stop the mix until I can saturate my muscles.  I am begining to become a supplement junky!  Usally I am looking at shoes, but now its like "What kind of supplement should I be taking!"  I have ran out of whey protien until I get paid this week. Damn three days without-what’s a girl to do?

So just an update on the progress…..My diet has been on point for the last week.  I plan out for the day what I will eat, so it is easy to resist the donuts @ work. I don’t eat after 8 unless I am really hungry and then its just a 1/2 cup of oatmeal.  I have been getting to the gym consistenly and have convinced my co-worker to rejoin our gym-she wants to be fabulous too!  I am basically getting use to the fact that tihis is how a human is suppose to eat, not to fill yourself with crap allday and night.  Went to Walmart the other day and I really wanted some Cheezits. I prayed for the strenght to resist and it worked.  I just find that I have a new found excitement for what is to come.  I wake up  feeling just a little bit lighter  which is a good thing.  I knew this was not going to be easy and I am slowly adjusting to the diet requirements, but I have set many goals for myself and this should be no different, taking it day by day, somedays will be bad I know, but at least it won’t be a habit of filling myself with food that does nothing but add ”spread”.  Eventually I’ll incorporate a cheat day just don’t know when yet.  I don’t feel like I need it at this point.  It will be my secret weapon when things get rough in the resistence department.

Then my crazy azz friend signed my up for a 10K(apx. 6 miles) in November-WHAT! I am still trying to convince myself that it can be done. Give it a week, we’ll see.;) How do you go from not running to runing a 10K.  That is what I am having a problem with. But I always wanted to learn how to do a sustained run.  No doubt that I am not going to run the whole thing straight through but this may be a good way to drop some pounds while training for this.

Went to the gym tonight. Very Good workout. I probably won’t be sore in the next couple of days, but one of those are coming. Maybe Friday so I can recover by Monday and start all over again.  I need to start  adding some ab training in. I was doing Tae bo and that would break my azz down, but we’ll see if I go back to that.

So my short term goals for now is to keep my diet clean, continue to make my workouts consistent, start a running program and just focus.  This is something that I really want. I can lose this weight and get back to where I feel reallly fabulous about myself and life in general. I can do this!

Its 10:30PM, boy do I feel beat!  I started my eating plan today and although I did have one or two hunger pangs I will say that I can get use to this. I don’t know if it is my body going through some change but I have no energy left. I know that will change.  I’ll stick it out.  Went to the gym today was energized  becuase I knew that the diet had been on point today so I figure why not give a little extra.   I need to take my measurements again and weight myself to I can get a baseline, I can pretty tell what it is at this point.

What is motivating me to take on this challenge of tranformation.  For the most part, I think that there is a really spectacular body under this, the fact that I like fashion and clothing plays a big part.  My thought is that clothing looks best  as an acessory to a really great body.  There is just a certain way that a fit body looks in nice clothing you know how those fine ass manegquin are looking these days LOL- I am like when did the manequin get finer than me!.    Then there is the fact that I really envision living my life a certain way and it does not involve tucking in "dunlaps" or "jellyrolls" or whatever you wanna call them.  At this point I am not too far gone in my head that I can’t shake back.  Then of course my health, I want to live a long healthy life and be able to enjoy all that it brings, as I age I don’t want people to be able to tell how old I really am.  I’ll just stay perpetually young (like on "Death Becomes Her" on second thought never mine!)  But you get the point  I got’s ta be FLY!!!!On down the line to the fact I know life is hard enought without carring around an extra  "little man"  that how I think of the extra pounds as a little person strapped to my back all day (how disturbing is that! I even got a name for it…DeyDey pronounce "DayDay").  More on my DeyDey later…

2 days Later…….

So I must say that I gotten throught the first two days with no big mess up’s. Today is my third and so far so good, althoug I had to switch things up just a litte.  As suggested I added a piece of fruit (green apple) to my preworkout snack. My energy is up and I already feel like I am in the process of slimming down.  That gets me excited.  Yesterday my boyfreind stopped at Popeye’s and although he teased me about wanted the chicken (It did smell great) I knew what giving into that urge would do to my progress. So I just thought of other things like my lifting routine, am I doing enough cardio.   So I really feel good, I try to be as patient as possible becuase I know this is going to work, I just need to give it time to work its magic.  So I will keep on keeping on in the meantime.

Peace.

 Espion

So I have finally wrapped my head around the fact that if I don’t get the eating together the body will not follow.  I have been knowing this for a long time, but damn why can’t I just defy evolution!  So I have worked out an eating plan and that is what I am going to stick with come hell or high water.  When should I schedule a cheat meal…..Please do I have to think of that too.  I need to up my water intake (bathroom here I come….oooh something else to look forward to the endless runs to the bathroom in the middle of work.)  Let me stop, the sarcasm is ooooozing  LOL.  This is something I really want so I am willing to put all the bullshit aside and get down to the real business.  So I will get the eating together, cuz I have been working out for years and I know that there is something really spectacular underneath it all.   Yes I do have something to prove, let me not kid myself……

7/29/08

So I went to the store yesterday to stock up on my meal plan basics. Wanna know what was in my basket (besides the Lucky Charms my boyfriend snuck in-I promise not to even look thier way)?  Head of Roman, Sweet Potatos, Chicken Tenderloins, Tilapia, Eggs, Protein Powder, Oatmeal, Balsamic Viniagrett (did I spell that right?)   So here is my eating plan so far.  Feel free to make comments:

Meal #1:7AM

4 egg whites,1/2 cup spinach,1/2 cup plain oatmeal

Meal#2:10AM

1 Chicken breast, 1 scoop protien shake

Meal#3:12AM

1 Chicken breast, 1cup Romaine Salad, 2Tbs Vinaigrette, 1 small sweet potato

Meal#4:3PM

1Scoop Protein shake

Meal #5:6PM

4oz Tilapia, 1 cup Romaine, 2tbs Viniagrette

Meal #6:8PM (After Workout)

2 scoop protein shake,1 pc wheat toast w sugar free preserve

So, this is what my eating will entail, I plan on switching things around a little when I get bored but basically this is it until the weight comes off. 

I am on meal #3 for the day and although I got enough sleep lastnight I am feeling a little sluggish.  I guess my body is going through a change.GOOD.

Peace,

 Espion.