My Body, My Journey……..

ON THIS DAY…SOME 29 YEARS AGO I WAS BORN…..A CHUBBY BABY BOY WITH ASTHMA…..NOW ON MY 29TH BIRTHDAY I AM IN THE BEST SHAPE OF MY LIFE. I AM BLESSED WITH GREAT FRIENDS AND FAMILY AND I AM LOOKING TOWARDS THE FUTURE AND WHATEVER MAY COME I ACCEPT OPENLY…..I CAN TRULY SAY I AM AT PEACE WITH MY LIFE AS IT IS AND I DO HOPE AND PRAY FOR MORE BUT I CAN ACCEPT WERE I AM TODAY AT THIS TIME IN MY LIFE. I AM GRATEFUL TO GOD TO ACTUALLY BE AT PEACE FOR A MOMENT.

JUST WANTED TO SHARE IT WITH U GUYS THANX 4 READING,

-P.

DURING THE HOLIDAY I FOUND THAT I HAD TO AUGMENT MY ROUTINE. THAT IS NORMALLY SOMETHING I WOULDN’T DO BUT WITH FAMILY DINNERS AND FRIENDS FROM OUT OF TOWN COMING IN I HAD NO CHOICE. BUT THEN IT WAS AMAZING I THAN ENDED UP SICK FOR A NUMBER OF DAYS, GRANTED IT WAS JUST A SINUS INFECTION IT WIPED ME OUT. BUT THEN CAME NEW YEAR’S, AND I HAD JUST STARTED TO FEEL BETTER WHEN A MIXTURE OF FOOD AND DRINK "CLEANSED MY SYSTEM….ORALLY…IF YOU CATCH MY DRIFT" ALL DAY NEW YEARS DAY. I THEN TRIED TO WORK OUT THIS WEEKEND BUT AFTER EVERYTHING MY BODY WAS SPENT. BUT HERE’S WHERE IT GOT INTERESTING……WITH THE REST I’VE GOTTEN THE DAYS I DIDN’T WORK OUT I’VE SEEN BIGGER CHANGES IN MY STRENGTH AND IN MY BODY…….ALL AND ALL IT JUST ENHANCES MY FOCUS FOR 2009 AND BEYOND…..AND GOD WILLING (KNOCK ON WOOD…KNOCK KNOCK) EVERYTHING I AM PUSHING FOR WILL HAPPEN. I AM ENCOURAGED FOR 2009…CHALLENGES AND TRIUMPHS AND ALL.

THX 4 READING MY RANDOM BABBLINGS

-P.

SO THE NEW YEAR IS ALL OF 2 DAYS AWAY AND I HAVEN’T TRAINED SINCE LAST WEDNESDAY. I TOOK A COUPLE OF DAYS OFF AND THEN GOT A SINUS INFECTION, THAT REALLY KNOCKED THE AIR OUT OF MY SAILS. BUT HOPEFULLY TOMORROW I’LL GET TO HITT THE GYM HARD. I HAVE REALLY GOT INTO THE MINDSET OF GO HARD OR GO HOME IN THE LAST COUPLE OF MONTHS. AND IN THE NEW YEAR I WILL BE TAKING IT TO A NEW LEVEL. I’M MOVING TO MARYLAND, BALTIMORE TO BE EXACT. I WILL BE STARTING CLASSES AT THE END OF THE MONTH. SO MY TIME WILL BE SHORT BUT I STILL BELIEVE I CAN GET A QUALITY WORKOUT IN ALL WHILE MASTERING MY GRADUATE STUDIES. THIS CHRISTMAS I HAD RELATIVES TELL ME I WAS GETTING TO BIG…..I DON’T SEE IT LIKE THAT AND ALL I CAN SAY IS ARE U KIDDING ME?…..I HAD MY MOM TRY TO TALK ME OUT OF CONTINUING TO TRAIN….AND I REALIZED MORE THAN EVER THAT MY GO HARD OR GO HOME ATTITUDE IS WHAT WILL MAKE THE DIFFERENCE IN ALL I DO…..IT IS ULTIMATELY UP TO ME WHETHER I SUCCEED OR FAIL IN SCHOOL AND LIFE….AND THAT IS NOT SOMETHING I TAKE LIGHTLY AT ALL…..I ALSO REALIZE THAT PEOPLE NEED TO SAY SOMETHING IN ORDER TO FEEL IMPORTANT…..UNFORTUNATELY IN MY FAMILY POSITIVES ARE USUALLY REWARDED WITH NEGATIVITY……..BUT THAT JUST MEANS I’M DOING GOOD AND LOOKING GREAT!!!!!!….SO TO EVERYONE IF U HAVE HATERS IN YOUR LIFE THANK THEM…..THEY WILL ONLY INSPIRE TO DO WHAT YOU’RE DOING……WHEN THEY STOP HATING……WORRY!!!!!!!!

WELL ENOUGH OF MY RANDOM BABBLINGS…..KEEP BANGIN’ OUT,

-P.

IN THE MEN’S ROOM @ MY GYM THERE’S A SIGN OVER A URINAL THAT SAYS ONE WORD………STRENGTH AND I HAVE ALWAYS SEEN IT IN PASSING BUT NEVER REALLY THOUGHT ON WHAT IT’S TALKING ABOUT. TODAY, AND IN RECENT DAYS, SINCE I’VE CHANGED MY SUPPLEMENTAL STACK, I’VE HAD ALOT OF PEOPLE COMMENT ON MY ENERGY, MY FOCUS AND MY BODY, HOW THEY SEE THE CHANGES. BUT TODAY A FRIEND OF MINE, WAS ASKING ME ABOUT THE SUPPS, AS IF THEY WERE THE SECRET POTION, I REALLY THAT MY REAL POTION WAS……(DON DON DA DA!!!!) STRENGTH……INNER STRENGTH AND FOCUS….WHILE…CONTROLLED LABS PRODUCTS HAVE DONE THINGS FOR ME I NEVER THOUGHT POSSIBLE…THEY REALLY ARE WINNING THE WAR AGAINST GENETICS…REAL TALK….BUT MY OWN DEDICATION ALLOWS THAT TO HAPPEN….YOU CAN TAKE ALL THE SUPPS IN THE WORLD BUT IF YOU DON’T DO THE WORK……YOU’RE WASTING YOUR TIME AND YOUR MONEY……..ANYWAY THAT WAS MORE RANDOM BABBLING FROM ME….THANKS FOR READING

AS I BABY I WAS BORN WITH ASTHMA AND I NEVER GREW OUT OF IT, ALL THOUGH I HAVE DONE MARTIAL ARTS FOR YEARS AND GYMNASTICS AND EVEN SANG AND SOME DANCE, I NEVER OUT GREW IT. THIS CONSTANTLY KEEP ME FROM RUNNING OR OTHER SPORTS I REALLY WANTED TO PLAY. YESTERDAY FOR THE FIRST TIME EVER I COMPLETED A 5 MILE RUN WITHOUT STOPPING OR RUNNING RIDICULOUSLY SLOW. AND WHILE THIS MAY SEEM TO BE SIMPLE AND SILLY TO SOME TO ME IT IS A SIGN THAT ALL THE WORK I HAVE BEEN DURING IN THE GYM IS PAYING OFF. MY BODY IS ALLOWING ME TO DO MORE THEN EVER BEFORE. I JUST WANTED TO SHARE THAT WITH Y’ALL.

THX 4 READING MY RANDOM BABBLINGS

-P.

I REALIZE THAT NORMAL PPL PROBABLY NOTICE EVERYTHING THAT CHANGES ON THEIR BODIES, EVERYDAY. BUT IF SOMEONE DIDN’T ASK ME ABOUT A MEASUREMENT I WOULD HAVE CONTINUED TO WORK THE BODY AND NOT STOPPED TO MEASURE ANYTHING. I REALLY JUST GO BY WHAT I SEE IN THE MIRROR. IF I FEEL SOMETHING NEEDS WORK IT GETS WORK. I’M WORKING HARD AND HONESTLY NOT NOTICING THE NUMBERS AND I REALLY NEED TO WAKE UP AND PAY ATTENION. OK ENOUGH RANDOM BABBLING.

 -P.

SO THIS HOLIDAY I DECIDED IN MY HEAD THAT I WOULD TRICK MY FAMILY AND FRIENDS INTO EATING HEALTHY AND TO WATCH THEIR PORTIONS. AND I HAVE TO SAY I WAS SUCCESSFUL. WHILE AT THE DINNE TABLE MY AUNT AND COUSIN STARTED TALKING TO ME ABOUT HOW I LOOK AND WHY I’M NOT EATING ALOT, AND I EXPLAIN HOW I EAT ABOUT 4-6 MEALS A DAY AND THAT IT HAS REALLY ADDED SOME FUEL TO AN ALREADY BURNING METABOLISM. THEY BOTH PUSH AWAY FROM THE TABLE AND TOOK HOME DOGGIE BAGS. MY FATHER HAS COMPLETELY TAKEN TO THE MANY SMALL MEALS AND AS A DIABETIC HE HAS TO BE CAREFUL WITH EVERYTHING HE EATS BUT HE HAS GONE FROM 305 TO 275LBS IN THE PAST COUPLE OF MONTHS AND NOW HE IS GETTING READY TO RETURN TO THE GYM, AFTER 6 MONTHS OF RECOVERY FROM A KNEE SURGERY. ALL AND ALL NOW I JUST GOTTA CUT CALORIES FROM MY PARENTS CHRISTMAS PARTY AND NEW YEARS’ HERE WE COME

 THANX 4 READING MY RANDOM BABBLINGS

-P.

SO MY ORIGINAL PLAN INVOLED ME FIGHTING TO GAIN WEIGHT TO GET TO 212 LBS BUT AFTER LOOKING AT THE DIRECTION MY LIFE IS HEADED IN I AM RETHINKING IT. I’LL BE STARTING SCHOOL NEXT SEMESTER AND MOVING TO ANOTHER STATE AND THAT WILL CHANGE MY WOROUT SCHEDULE COMPLETELY. AND KNOWING THAT THE IDEA OF GAINING MORE WEIGHT WILL BE AN UPHILL CLIMB…I’M THINKING I SHOULD GO WITH MY BODY AND FOCUS ON DEFINITION AND TRY TO GET AS LEAN AS I CAN, WHILE BULIDING MUSCLE BURN AS MUCH FAT AS I CAN. NOW THIS OFCOURSE MEANS I NEED TO FIGURE OUT HOW EXACTLY I CAN ACCOMPLISH THIS……………..AND RIGHT NOW I’M DRAWING A BLANK…………RESEARCH TIME………………..

YESTERDAY POST WAS REALLY BIZARRE BECAUSE I TYPED WHILE TALKING TO MY SISTER LONG DISTANCE LOL NEVER AGAIN….WHAT I WAS REALLY WANTING TO SAY WAS THE FRAUSTRATION WITH STAYING FOCUS AND NOT COMPARING MYSELF TO OTHERS IS REALLY REALLY INTERESTING. I WORK OUT WITH A GREAT GROUP OF GUYS….AND WE GIVE EACH OTHER SHIT ALL THE TIME BUT SOMETIMES….YOU JUST WONDER ABOUT HOW MUCH OF THE SHIT WE TALK IS IN JEST AND HOW MUCH IS REAL. I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN A PERSON THAT PRIDE THEMSELF ON STAYING FOCUSED AND POSITIVE…AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE BUT SOMETIMES YOU GET A LITTLE SIDE TRACK WHEN YOU START TO READ MORE INTO A STATEMENT THEN NECESSARY. MY SOLUTION IS TO WORKOUT ALONE FROM TIME TO TIME. IT ALLOWS ME TO GET MY HEAD RIGHT. AND SINCE MY LIFE HAS A TENDANCY OF BEING A BIT CROWDED IT WORKS OUT THAT I STEP OUT EVERY NOW AND AGAIN.

ONCE AGAIN JUST RANDOM BABBLING FROM A RANDOM MAN

KEEP BANGIN’ THEM OUT

-P.

EVERY SATURDAY I WAKE UP AND HIT THE GYM AND DO MY CARDIO AND CHEST ROUTINE….I AM SO FOCUSED ON MEETING MY GOALS AND MAKING MY BODY LOOK IT BEST THAT EARLY WAKE UPS AND PROPER DIET ARE A NECESSARY AND EASY TO DO….ATLEAST FOR TODAY LOL