BC*’s BodyBlog

I was doing rows yesterday….. (compound machine) 12 reps of 125lbs.  Keep in mind I only weigh 112….A lady I know said hi, and stupid me looks over my shoulder. BAD IDEA. Ouch, can’t believe I did that.  It is a good thing I still have some Robaxin.  Now I am a hurtin’ unit. 

ok, this may sound silly, but I was terrified to go to the gym.  i have this issue with being in big open spaces with people all around me and no where to hide.  (I’m sure there’s a medical term)  anyhoo, i had been working out at home forever.  when my husband and i moved to Arizona, i couldnt take any of my equipment with me.  however, there is a gym on base here. and going there is free.  my first time there was a little scary.  but with my hubby by my side, i finally feel ok in the gym.  the results are really paying off.  and i wish i would have been going to the gym for the last year instead of working out at home.  i’m sure i would have been a lot farther along in the progress i want.  oh well. at least i am going now, right?

yesterday I had one of my customers ask me if i was happy now that I am thinner.  I simled and said of course i am! i’m 25lbs lighter and when your only 5′ tall, 25lbs might as well be a ton.  then he asks me:"are you sure"  is every thing ok?  WTF buddy!! its not like my god damn bones are poking out!! i eat six times a damn day!! my hair isnt falling out, im healthy ok??! then he starts to tell me about eating disorders and all that crap, look i know that they are serious, and i have experienced all the horrible things that go with them. i have a freind that got to 90lbs at 5′7" and it almost killed her.  and here is this guy who smokes like a chimney, has a beer belly, and eats shitty food all the time telling me to be healthy? yeah thanks for being concerned, but i am a big girl and i can take care of myself.

I have always just done my ab workouts to this stupid video (not telling) and didnt realize the workout i wasnt getting.  i decided to change things up.  So i bought a medicine ball and an ab sculpting book.  did my first workout on sunday.  i thought "geez that wasnt too hard."  then monday came and i thought i was going to die.  we always goof off at work and everytime i had to laugh i thoght i was gonna cry.  anyway,  i have decided not to do abs every day and try it every other day once i get used to this evil little ball.   ps. this is my first post, hope it isnt screwed up.