ATK HAS EVOLVED
NO i haven’t lost my mind. I haven’t STOPPED training…I haven’t gave up on my dreams. My path has changed…i have evolved. I’ve been stuck being a bodybuilding robot for the past 2yrs…lifting…, eating, and sleeping(rinse and repeat you know the drill). I’m quite sick of it. I’m sick of watching what i eat as to not gain toooo much fat. I’m sick of training a way that will get me the most muscle fast. I was so dumb to think i would make top 3 in my first contest…I realize the chances of it are slim to none at my height and weight. I didn’t give up…though. I won’t be competeing this year, but i haven’t quite!
I haven’t given up all my dreams and hard work. The 20+ hrs a week i spent in the gym worrying about how i was going to gain "X" amount of muscle in a week. What i did wrong was follow conformity…i followed it to a tee. Day in and day out i worked..and i worked. Lifted..ate…slept. Nothing else…nothing! I have a small (very very small) social life outside of talking to my training partner in the gym. What i did wrong was worry about a contest…not about ME. The most important thing in all this. I will no longer follow the rules. I will no longer be a robot of bodybuilding.
I have so many ideas about training, about nutrition, about supplements. About everything! I can’t express my ideas if i have a contest coming up in 4 months…i have to stick to the plan…I have to if i want to win. Well….i dont want to win anymore…I dont want to be on top. In my eyes i have climbed that mountain…i have reached it and touched the top. I want to be dead honest with you people rite now. I don’t care what you think of me. I dont care what im suppose to look like to you. I don’t care if you dont like how i train, if you dont like what im takeing for supps, or the damn food that i eat. I am ME…I am the greatest. The greatest in MY eyes.
So no i wont conform…to this bb’ing routine day in and day out…I will not be training for a competition. I will be training for the damn sake of training and enjoyment. Which no one really does anymore….Everyone dreads legs days rite? **** it…Im gunna love them! Im gunna love every rep i push out…every freakin piece of KFC chicken i eat…every damn CEE pill i pop into my big ass mouth.
Expect more from me…expect my training to change as I see fit…my diet…screw it….ill eat what i freakin want too. I will train for function, strength, muscle, for me. If i gain a couple pounds of muscle along the way…good for me!!! I won’t step on a scale every week anymore…Once a month sounds good.
I haven’t gone crazy…i havent given up on my dreams. I have taken a step back and looked deeper into things.
Love me or hate me…..It makes no differences to me.
July 12, 2007 at 11:08 pm
Awesome post,
"What i did wrong was worry about a contest…not about ME. The most important thing in all this. I will no longer follow the rules. I will no longer be a robot of bodybuilding."
Only you can look after yourself! and you must make yourself the number one priority!
I agree with " I will be training for the damn sake of training and enjoyment. " I am not competeing I do not get paid to workout in fact at one of my gyms I have to pay to work out. I do it for myself, not my family, not my friends and not even for my GF who really isnt a fan a bis muscle dudes anyways. I do it for myself ], I like the challenge I like the weight going up. no I am not super lean(no brad pitt fightclub body) But I enjoy eating food, I try to limit the amount of bad food but I eat pizza hell last night I has a slurpee
July 12, 2007 at 11:11 pm
lol..it cut off the last half of my post..
i dont remember it all but
to continue….Best of luck in your future buddy!
Im glad you are doing stuff for you, take care of yourself! I will be following your progress and encouraging you as you go(no stalker)
Best of luck bro!
July 12, 2007 at 11:11 pm
Exactly! You understand it all perfectly man!
July 13, 2007 at 1:34 am
Hey, its your life do what you want, RESPECT for figuring out what you want while others site around and still wonder.
July 13, 2007 at 1:36 am
Thanks man!
July 15, 2007 at 10:53 pm
WOW!!!!!!!
You are right! This is a serious one. But you know what? You gotta be true to yourself. If you want to do a new routine and eat the way you want to eat then have at it. I got your back little bro!
I will be watching your progress and if what you are going to do from now on will work for you then GO FOR IT! I’ll be here to cheer you on!
See! I told you that I"ll read this before I go to bed.