Hey skinny guy in the mirror!
It’s been a while….but today I have a few minutes to share. Yesterday, I measured my chest and I was glad to see that there had been some progress. Although, I did not make most of my 90 day goals, I was encouraged by the progress made. I added 2 inches to my chest! Still working on the legs and arms. Though, I’ve noticed greater definition in both, but not much in terms of size.
I also had a weight goal…well this has always been a challenge for me. Being such a small frame guy all of my life, I wanted to try and do something about my weight. Before I started working out consistently I weighed between 130-135 lbs. I am now 20lbs heavier and I like what I see. The amazing thing is your brain can play tricks on you…as I was getting larger, more defined and my muscles became more pronounced, when I looked in the mirror I still saw a skinny guy. My wife, kids, members of my congregation all commented on my progress…but somewhere there was a disconnect in my psyche. So, I desired to put on more mass…maybe just another 10lbs-not a big deal, right? Well, it wasn’t the 10 lbs. that was the problem. It was the poor self image behind the 10lbs. Recently, as I came to understand this about myself I discovered that if I don’t find wholeness and healing here, the 10lbs won’t be enough. I’ll reach that goal and inside the mirror of my mind will still live a skinny guy. How unfortunate!
These are just the inner reflections of a man who is still in process; "under construction" so to speak. But, I am no longer bound to the image of the skinny guy. I am healthy, strong and fit. 10lbs isn’t so important any more. Giving glory to God by maximizing what I already have is what’s important…every step of the way. This was a good lesson for me. So often we focus on what we don’t have and miss out on what we already have. Looking forward to the journey.
