Artman35’s BodyBlog

It’s been a while….but today I have a few minutes to share. Yesterday, I measured my chest and I was glad to see that there had been some progress.  Although, I did not make most of my 90 day goals, I was encouraged by the progress made.  I added 2 inches to my chest!  Still working on the legs and arms.  Though, I’ve noticed greater definition in both, but not much in terms of size.

I also had a weight goal…well this has always been a challenge for me.  Being such a small frame guy all of my life, I wanted to try and do something about my weight.  Before I started working out consistently I weighed between 130-135 lbs. I am now 20lbs heavier and I like what I see.  The amazing thing is your brain can play tricks on you…as I was getting larger, more defined and my muscles became more pronounced, when I looked in the mirror I still saw a skinny guy.  My wife, kids, members of my congregation all commented on my progress…but somewhere there was a disconnect in my psyche.  So, I desired to put on more mass…maybe just another 10lbs-not a big deal, right?  Well, it wasn’t the 10 lbs. that was the problem.  It was the poor self image behind the 10lbs.  Recently, as I came to understand this about myself I discovered that if I don’t find wholeness and healing here, the 10lbs won’t be enough.  I’ll reach that goal and inside the mirror of my mind will still live a skinny guy.  How unfortunate!

These are just the inner reflections of a man who is still in process; "under construction" so to speak. But, I am no longer bound to the image of the skinny guy.  I am healthy, strong and fit.  10lbs isn’t so important any more.  Giving glory to God by maximizing what I already have is what’s important…every step of the way.  This was a good lesson for me.  So often we focus on what we don’t have and miss out on what we already have.  Looking forward to the journey.