Keeping a happy face
Well, the time is drawing nearer to my redeploying. Generally speaking, I am very happy. I am also scared. I have to go home and deal with a lot of things that I was able to not deal with for a long time. Some of you know exactly what I am talking about. More than that, I have to deal with the change of not being deployed. See for the past year, I had really only one focus…making sure I do what I need to do to make sure my soldiers and myself make it home in the same condition as before we deployed.
I have noticed a change in me…slightly more irritable, sleep issues, lack of desire to kick my ass in the gym. It is really bizarre. My emotions are right on the edge all of the time. It hasn’t helped that we have lost soldiers in the past recently. They were not in my unit, but the feeling of loss is still the same…they are all my brothers and sisters. We have done and seen some things during this deployment that I am happy to remember and some that I do not wish to remember. I am sorry, I feel like I am whining…I’ll stop.
Let’s talk about working out! Like I have said before, I am having issues focusing and finding the desire to go and work out. It also doesn’t help that I apparently have a rotator cup issue in my left shoulder. I have been putting off getting it looked at, because I don’t want to get sent somewhere to get the tests done. I need to be here with my guys. So, I drop the weight and grin my way through my workout. I look forward to Bi day, because it doesn’t hurt so bad…lol!
Well again, I really didn’t mean to sound like a whinny little b**ch, I was just feeling a little down and wanted to put it on paper in the hopes it will help my mood.
Until later…Jay
