ArmySoldier1’s BodyBlog

   Okay, mentally I am still in the same shape as before. I figure that this will take a while to get my hands around, I have turned over a lot of this to God. That has proven to provide some relief. What do you do when your perfect life of 7 1/2 years all of a sudden spins out of control and tumbles to a halt? What makes matters worse…there is absolutely nothing I can do to change the outcome.

   On a better note, I took my APFT today and maxed it! Did better than the 22 year old Soldier that is in my section. That did put a smile on my face and I am excited to keep working and become the best in my whole unit by the time I redeploy. It is strange, as I type redeploy, I find myself dreading it in a way. I will have to face the unevitable at that time.

   Okay, I will end this so I can get to the gym and kick my ass.

Until later…Jay

   It seems that the saga that is my personal life is never ending. I have hit a all time low in my life and all I really want to do is crawl in a hole and hide. I can’t begin to explain how I am currently feeling…changes so rapidly. It makes being deployed, which is already a highly stressful situation even worse. I understand that I sound like I am whining…trying not to, but I just need to vent.

   I am forcing myself to continue to go to the gym, but it is taking all of the inner strenght in order to do it. It is esp. hard since I am changing my workouts to increase my intensity. I am having trouble eating, and we all know how important that is, so I hope it doesn’t hurt my progress to much.

   Well, I guess I should get off here and do something…can’t go to the gym since I have a Army Physical Fitness Test tomorrow morning.

 Until later…Jay

   Well, my motivation level is where it should be, but it is challanging to keep it there. This place can really mess with your head if you let it. Got some personal issues that I have almost completely beat. Still making it to the gym and kicking my ass. I am changing my workouts Monday…going to start to cut and see if this bulking thing worked…lol! I am excited to shed this last layer of fat and finally post my before and after pics.

   This is short, as I need to get a bunch of things done to be ready for tomorrow. God Bless each and everyone of you and thank you for providing me support and motivation. You all are truly my hero’s!

 Until later…Jay

   It is 13 APR and last night I took a bicep measurement…I am slowly getting some size! It has made my already high motivation even higher! I switched my workout and went to a split routine instead of one bodypart per day. I will be interested to see how my body responds. Did chest today and will do triceps tonight. I have also switched to HIIT cardio 5 days per week. I change each day…one day bike, one day elipitcal. I will be doing abs three days a week.

   It is funny, when I go to the gym I see so many people lifting completely wrong! Also, everyone seems to be interested how much they can lift on any given exercise. I don’t worry about my max in any lift, maybe that is wrong but oh well. I am slowly increasing size and strength while reducing bodyfat. Diet here is a task, they don’t really make it easy. I eat a lot of tuna. Sometimes chicken, but they usually smother the chicken in some kind of calorie filled sauce. You know though, I am doing alright. I have cheat meals once a week, where I allow myself a little vanilla ice cream.

   Afghanistan still sucks…but I got to get going and do some work.

 Until later…Jay