ArmySoldier1’s BodyBlog

I was still healing from my fractured elbow when I found out that I was being deployed. I fully expected to heal and then get back into the gym. Well, I found out shortly after my doctors clearance to work out that I was being deployed. I made the decision that spending my rather limited time prior to deploying that I would spend it with my family and not in the gym. I miss the gym horribly, but spending time with my family is my top priority now. Since my wife has not shown an interest in joining me at the gym, that means that I will not go.

So that gets me to my guilt. I am guilty for coming on this site and stating that I am in fact, back in the gym. Does that make me a liar? Yes it does and for that I am disgusted with myself. I am NOT a liar, matter of fact, I really have an issue with liars. So there it is…I have lied to you all and I apologize for it. It will not happen again.

When I get in theatre, I will use my down time to hit the gym with a vengence. I haven’t set any specific goals as of yet, I will wait until I get there before I do that. I am excited about (hopefully) working out with a training partner for the first time. I am excited about seeing what progress can be made during my year long deployment.

I am sad about leaving my family. I am sad that I will miss so much of my children’s lives. I also know that when I signed up, that it was a possibility…just kind of hoping that it wasn’t going to happen. I sad that my wife will be required to spend a year being both Mom and Dad. I am going to miss her so much…even with all of the stuff we have been through in the past six months, she is still the one that I want to see right before I go to sleep and the first one that I want to see when I wake up. They have a great support system here and I know that she will be in good hands while I am gone.

Well, I suppose I will leave it at that for now…later, Jay

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