Time is getting closer…
So I sit here looking at the calendar wondering if I created enough lasting memories with my wife and kids. Did I do enough today to carry with me for an entire year?
It is crazy from day to day what things will make me cry. Today it was some concert on CMT (Taylor Swift and Def Leopard)…go figure. I also had to go to my daughters school to let them know that I was being deployed and ask them to watch for changes in her behavior.
I have let this kind of consume me…I don’t even like to go work out as I might miss some valuable time with them. I try to keep things the same so I don’t disrupt their current schedule and routine. I am quick to get mad over the smallest of things. So I do a lot of night time reflection.
Did I do enough today?
Did I make sure I told the people that I love that I love them?
Did I tell them I love them enough?
I am not really scared of going…I am scared of what will happen when I am gone. I am not a control freak, but I also have never been in a position that I have absolutely NO control either.
Well, I will continue this later…
