ArmySoldier1’s BodyBlog

OMG…I can’t believe how much I miss going to the gym! It has been like three weeks and I have at least another 3 to go. I have started doing ab work like a man possessed! I am still dropping weight which is causing another issue…loose skin! My stomach is a disgusting mess. It makes me sick to have my shirt off. I have given some consideration of going out to the garage and taking the dremel tool to it…then I thought better.

I am still dropping weight, but I think it has more with not being able to eat then what I am eating. I have been going through some stuff lately and it is really messing with my head and heart! I can only put my faith in God that it is all going to work out! I would appreciate if those that are interested…please put me (and my children) on your prayer list.

I must go…I have some stuff to take care of and I really am in no shape to blog right now!

‘Til next time…Jay

   So a buddy of mine gave me his old 30 gig iPod (yeah, no kidding) because he said it wasn’t working properly. I messed with it most of the weekend and not only does it work, I was able to put some music on it. I have many more songs to add…30 gigs is a lot of music. I am going to try to put some movies on it as well so I will have something to watch when I go on TDY in October. So now I have a iPod and a 4 gig Samsung (that I have no idea what to do with). There is nothing better that FREE technology! I just need someone to upgrade my POS cell phone and I will be all set…Lmao!

   I have to make another doctor appointment for my arm. I am having trouble with my wrist. It always hurts, esp. when I try to rotate it. It is from the same fall, I just need to make sure it isn’t messed up as well. I tried to help my neighbor move a picnic table yesterday and couldn’t pick it up without sending waves of pain from my broken elbow to my wrist. Just when I thought my elbow was getting better. It has only been 3 weeks and the doctor did say at least 6 before he wants me to start using it. I have stopped wearing my sling because I hate the darn thing.

   Not being able to work out doessn’t seem to be affecting my progress though. I am down another 3 pounds since last week. I want to get down to 200 and then I am going to start working on adding lean muscle mass! 200 is what the Army says I can weight based on my height and age without having to be taped. I doubt I will get down to 200 before I start adding. I just have to make sure I stay well away from 24% bodyfat! That should be no problem, since I am at 19% now.

   Well, my mood is increasing slightly…not back to where it was (or should be) yet, but getting there. I think once my arm heals I will be better. Okay, no more blabbing…I got to get some work done. Talk to you all later…Jay

   Well, I tried to do some simple pushups and I could only do a couple without it causing some pain…damn! So I decided not to risk further injury and quit. My broken arm is really frustrating! It is really hard to be patient, eventhough I know that is what is required.

   So my elbow combined with some personal issues is really screwing me up. I am not sleeping well, not really eating at all, etc. I am trying to get a grip on it, but it is difficult. I hope I will have some answers by Friday and I will blog about it then.

    On a brighter note, my daughter is starting school in a couple of weeks…she is so excited. She has been ready since she was 3! The school told us that she will probably be moved to the first grade by the end of the year! I just hope they make that decision based on her ability only (not worrying about socialization). We are a military family and tend to move around a lot, so unfortunately she will have to become accustomed to moving schools. I am trying to change my MOS so that will be less of an issue for her and my youngest (when he starts).

I hope you all have a fantastic week…Jay

Vacation was very relaxing…didn’t do much of anything. Did take the kids to the fair…my oldest lost my cell phone! He put it in his cargo pocket and didn’t button it up before getting on the rides. Well, one of the carnies called my Mom’s house at almost 0200 to let us know he found it on TOP of one of the booths. I drove down the next morning and picked it up. It has some water damage (it rained the night it was lost), but seems to be working anyway.

Unfortunately, my Step dad could not help himself and was a dickhead to my wife a couple of times. Sometimes I just don’t understand why he feels the need to be an ass? Oh well, I will spend no more time on this subject.

I was sad because I had to drop off my son to his Mother…that always makes me sad! I am glad to be back home and looking forward to my elbow healing so I can get back into the gym!
Until next time…Jay

Yippeeeeeeeeeee, my family and I are leaving tomorrow morning to go back to Michigan to visit my family! I haven’t seen my Mom since Thanksgiving of ‘06. Being in the military makes travel rather difficult sometimes. I took some leave and will be spending a week visiting my Mom.

There is a family picnic scheduled for Tuesday and I am hoping everyone shows up. My sister and her family, my Aunt and Uncles, My Grandpa and his wife…hoping for a great time! Cautiously hoping, my wife and stepdad do NOT get along. He is rather rude to her at times and am sure issues will arise!

The down side to all of this is that I have to drop off my son to the demonic force that refers to herself as his mother. He will be a Freshman this year and I only get to see him in the summer. But we make the best of it and that is all we can do. Positive note…only four more years before I get to stop making the demonic forces’ house payment.

It will give my broken elbow some time to heal and then hopefully when we get back, I will be able to hit the gym. I have been able to drop 15 pounds since June so I am hoping that keeps up. Work on lowering bodyfat and increase lean muscle mass!

Thanks to all, I will see you in a week!

Jay

I went to the doctor to get my broken right radial head x-rayed again…good news, it is no worse so surgery or cast is not required. Just "take it easy for the next 6 weeks". He won’t clear me to do any kind of cardio or weightlifting (obviously). I can do some ab stuff. I had my right forearm checked as well as there is a lot of pain. Came back negative and he thinks I probably just have some soft tissue damage. He doesn’t seem concerned.

I hate just sitting, not being able to work out! It sucks, but I suppose (now that I will be 40 tomorrow) that I should make sure my body heals properly. I find myself looking at things differently now. I try not to worry about things I have no control over and focus on the things that I can. I am trying to be at peace with everything. Boy, life can throw you some sh*t sometimes.

I will keep you all posted as things progress and I am able to get back into the gym.

God Bless all of you and have a great weekend!

Jay

Well, my buddy wanted me to tell you all that he feels extremely blessed that so many people are thinking about him during this difficult time in his life. He has embraced your thoughts and well wishes. I would like to thank each and everyone of you as well.

He thinks that they are starting to get to a good place. She has agreed to sever all ties and work on making their marriage work. He still has trust issues and is trying to get his arms around the fact that his wife has fallen in love with a man (via the internet, IM and phone) without every talking face to face…all in about 2 months. He has accepted responsibility regarding some of his actions that made his wife go looking for what she was not getting in her marriage. He told me that he will no longer take his wife for granted. He is also having some problems with the amount of time that she plays this game (like 6-8 hours per day). She doesn’t see the problem…he told me that he has decided to take the "if you can’t beat them, join them" approach. He is trying to learn why this game is so important to her, so he sits by her and watches her play. He says it is amusing. He told me that he has to start trusting her to do the right thing so they can move forward together. Please pray for them…
Again, most heartfelt thanks to all that has given advice…he is forever grateful.

Thanks from me too…God Bless you all!

Wow, I received a phone call last night from a buddy of mine…it freaking blew my mind. After he explained everything, he asked for advice. I was speechless. So here is the story all summed up!

His wife has fallen in love with another man (which according to my buddy she has never met face to face) and this guy has fallen in love with her. She met him on line and in like 2 months was in love. Supposedly, he was giving her what my buddy was not. There has been many lies and attempted cover ups. He sounded like crap (understandably so). Unfortunately, he is in another state and since I am in the military…I can not get to him. I feel so helpless. She told him that she is not sure who she wants to be with. She has been married to him for some time and has kids together. He told her in order for them to get past this, she needs to sever all ties with him. She refuses to cut ties with this guy and says that she needs to handle this her way. That means she needs to continue to talk to this guy until she figures it out. He told me that he suggested counseling, but she flat out refused.
Obviously, my first question was, "dude, do you still love her?" I told me that he is still in love with her and wants them to work it out, that he still loves her more than ever. So here is my buddy who has to give her space while she works this out. Meanwhile, he has to act like nothing is wrong in order to not push her to this guy and hope that the kids to get a sense that something is wrong.

So here is the million dollar question…how do I tell my buddy to do this? I couldn’t imagine what he must be going through! I would really like to hear what some of your ideas on this issue might be…feeling helpless friend.

Well, I have seemed to suffer a setback that doesn’t have to do with my head! This past Tuesday, my son (2 years old) fell of his little tractor and hit is mouth on the sidewalk. I went to run to him and tripped over a different sidewalk and fell on my right elbow. Well, I wound up going to the emergency room and I fractured my Radial Head. I am getting some decent range of motion back, but need to take it easy to ensure it does not get worse. Doctor said about 6 weeks…we’ll see.

I am still having some issues dealing with some things that happened at home, but it is getting better. Man, I just want things to go back to normal, the stress is eating me up inside.

Going on leave starting Monday…woooohooo! Going to visit my family back in Michigan. I am really excited, it has been to long since last seeing her. Hopefully that will help clear my head.

"Let Go and Let God"

"God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I can not change, the courage to change the things I can and the wisdome to know the difference"