Sweet Dreams??
I have been having another good week diet and exercise wise, decided not to weigh myself so I wouldn’t have any reason to get discouraged if the scale didn’t show a loss. Yesterday I did an upper and lower body workout, but I don’t think I put enough into it. Normally I just do upper or lower by themselves, and I may keep doing that for now to target areas individually a little more. The first exercise I did was bent over rows, and everything felt fine until I did squats and then my lower back was threatening me with a little pain after that. I didn’t want to turn that into a full blown lower back injury that would keep me from working out for a while, so I backed off and didn’t really do as much as I needed to. But better to be safe than sorry, right?? I do have some muscle soreness in my upper and lower body today, so yesterday’s workout wasn’t a waste after all.
After I worked out I went to the grocery store and decided to "just take a look" at the Halloween candy aisle. MMMMM….candy, all kinds of candy! I picked up a bag of candy corns and thought for a second about buying it, thinking, it’s candy corn, it’s a Halloween tradition, it has no fat, what is the harm in that? Then I turned the bag over and looked at the ingredient listing: High Fructose Corn Syrup was the first one. That stopped me in my tracks and snapped me back into reality. Yeah, there is harm in that!! So I put the bag down and kept walking thru the loooooong Halloween candy aisle. But now as I looked at the bags of candy, I thought, wow, look at all the empty calories I am not eating anymore. My thinking in the past has always been, if I try to eliminate something completely out of my diet that I like, it will backfire and I will surely end up bingeing (sp?) on it later. That thinking has kept candy in my diet, believing it would be unrealistic for me to end my long relationship with it. But surprisingly I don’t crave candy. And I know that if I allow myself to eat it, I always end up eating too much—it is something that creeps up on me piece by piece, not all in one sitting or anything like that, so I never think I am going overboard until my jeans get tight and I am left wondering, how the heck?, I only had a few pieces of candy!! But the proof is in the pants, and it is a slippery slope that is just not worth it…
I left the store with no junk food, and ended the evening on excellent terms with my diet…and then the morning came. I can honestly say this is a first for me: Before I got up I was having the kind of fitful sleep where you are about to wake up, but so tired that you fall back asleep and then an hour has gone by and you realize you didn’t get out of bed yet. Well during the time I fell back asleep I had a dream. In this dream, I ate 1/2 a peanut butter pie that had a chocolate top, kinda like a big Reese’s Peanut Butter cup. Really, really like a Reese’s Peanut Butter cup. Did I mention earlier that I saw those too in the candy aisle, peanut butter cups? Well, I did, and they are–no, WERE, a favorite of mine. But not just at Halloween, all year long. SO they are a 12 month diet threat to me, and seeing them in their new bags that you KNOW are fresh and haven’t been sitting on the shelf getting old and dried out, (if you have ever bit into an old peanut butter cup that crumbles you know what I mean)because they have special seasonal packaging, it was a little hard to resist…but I did…and this is the only reason I can think of as to why I dreamt about eating the peanut butter chocolate pie thing. Anyways I believed the dream was true for about 2 minutes while still groggy and not quite awake yet and felt the real guilt and disgust with myself that I would normally feel if I did something like that. I really believed my good diet week was ruined and I started wondering why I let this happen. I was so mad at myself! And then I woke up and realized it was just a "sweet dream." Oooohhhhh thank goodness!!! 
…P.S. …don’t let this happen to you, stay OUT of the Halloween candy aisle!!!
