Becomming A Fitness Competitor

I’m soooo frustrated today. And for a change BB.com isn’t helping at all!!

I’ve been working out for almost 3 years now. I’ve lost 18 lbs so far. And it’s not nearly enough. I bust my a$$ 5 times a week, I eat healthy (or as healthy as possible), I take my vitamins and supps like a good girl, but it’s still not good enough.

I see girls on here that started the same period as I did and they look AMAZING. Some even had 3-4 kids and managed to lose the weight that was worse than mine WITHIN A YEAR!!!!  

I’m every freakin day in the gym working myself to the bone for what? For mediocre results? Don’t get me wrong I DO admire those girls on here. They are doing great and should keep it up. I keep telling myself, oh they must be on something…(I can be a hating bitch sometimes ), or… They have a complete different body type. And living in holland where every one seems to be at least 6" tall and a size 2, doesn’t motivate me at all.

Not to mention WEIGHT!! I feel like a HIPPO at 138 lb. One of my best friends just told me a few days ago that she’s at 121 lbs. And yes, she’s almost 6" tall. Not really… she’s more like 5"8′. Ok she has a little flabby stomach and squishy body, but that’s not the point. SHE’S 121 LBS!!! I can’t remember when is the last time I weighted that much. Oh yes I do…. I was 13.

Anyway. I’m doing morning cardio at 4.30 am, 6 times a week, so maybe I’m just sleep-deprived and cranky.

I have a weigh in next week at my coach and we’ll see if I made any progress.

Take care!

I just signed in for an athletics class. I hate running, jogging, swimming… in one word… CARDIO. Why I do it? Simply because I need to lean out, mostly my lower body. 

And since I have to PAY for it, I’ll force myself to go. It’s a 12 week course on saturdays. They help you develop a better fitness level. It’s a small group 30-35 people and there will be 2 trainers so you’ll have more supervision. At the end of the course you’ll have to do a Cooper test and after you pass that, a certificate. It seems ok and to tell you the truth… I’m kind of excited. 

I try not to expect too much. I just hope I end up loving it or at least being at peace with running. 

The only thing is…. my hubby isn’t happy about that. It’s one more thing that takes time being away from him. I know what he means cause during the week I’m always working, working out, cooking meals and go to sleep early cause I need to wake up early for my morning cardio. And at the end of the week I’m exhausted!  

I think I have to talk to my trainer to come up with a new training schedule, where I can spend more time doing things with or TO my husband. hehehe I don’t know like maybe weightlifting 3 times a week and cardio 6 times a week. Instead of weightlifting 5 times/week and cardio 5-6 times. And NOOOO working out with him isn’t an option. He’s a MARINE! 

I used to go running with him and he always barked at me, like I was a recruit myself. If that was someone else I wouldn’t mind it that much, cause I’ll go home after that, and wouldn’t see him/her till the next day. I don’t have that on/off switch, so I was pissed all night at him for yelling at me. And he always did the meanest things. Like when I was all sore and wanted to go home, he’ll take a detour. Or run through mud when it’s raining/snowing. oh he even let me run on a cross bike track/course. Uphill, downhill. and it was very steep for almost 2 hrs. I cried on my way home that day. SERIOUSLY. So for the sake of our marriage….. I’ll do this on my own and I’ll PAY for somebody else to yell at me. Than I know I won’t stab anyone in their sleep. hahaha

This test is originally meant for women to see if they have sagging breasts. You put a pencil underneath your breast and if it stays in place, you have sagging breasts. I passed this one. (Us women do come up with crazy things to mess us up more, huh.)

But then I used the test to see if I have a sagging butt, I failed miserably. It’s not that I have a flabby droopy butt; it’s quite firm actually. It’s just that it is such a big, round and protruding butt! I’m sure I have at least 10 lbs on one cheek alone. LOL
The more squats, lunges and step-ups I do the more round and bulgy it gets. I’m working on that nice NO gluteal fold figure women have.  ARGHHHH!
More squats! More squats!!

As you might have guessed from my bodyblog title I’m aspiring to compete next year in april. Since march this year I’ve been working with a nutritionist. She monitors my weight and body fat every 4-5 weeks and also helps me out with supplementation and diet. The thing is that I have to compete against taller, more muscular, younger girls that have more experience than I do.

factor 1: Height I’m 5’3” and most girls are 5’6”. European girls are taller and leaner. I’m half Caribbean, half Latina. I have the typical bootylicious body and trunk like legs on top of that.  So it’s more difficult for me to get my legs shaped and leaned out. I’m working on that tight-no-gluteal-fold and it’s very difficult, almost impossible to get.

factor 2: body fat I do have celulite and a lot of it. I’m not ashamed for  having them but I’m not happy either. I’ve read once that  only 6% all female don’t have cellulite and I seriously believe that 5% live here in holland and they are ALL competing in bodybuilding. It’s frustrating. I know it can be helped with proper nutrition and working out a lot, but you’ll never get rid of it entirely. That SUCK!

factor 3: Musclarity  These girls have sports background. The ones that always win, come from athletics, running, judo and gymnastics. I used to practice tae kwondo but that was ages ago and the only thing that I kept out of it is the discipline/ love for sports and I won’t whine if it hurts. I lost my flexibility, my six-pack (I had one at 16 years old and big arms. My sister used to call me Popeye!) and my overall muscularity.

Even knowing all this I’m still going to compete and I know I have a lot of work to do. You would think; oh it’s 8 months away, there is enough time. But time flies!       

First thing my trainer said was that I have to lose a lot of bodyfat. While grabbing my triceps and saddle bags! I also have a lot of fat on the inner side of my knees and inner thighs. I do have cellulite on my butt and hamstrings. When I flex my tricep you’ll see cellulite on there too. And I have a fatroll on my lower back. I’m not discouraged though. I know I need to work very hard to achieve this. I look damn good already, imagine how it will be after I reached my goal. LOL

I have a trainer now. Well she’s more of a guide. I have to travel an hour, hour and a half to get to her shop, but it’s worth it. She takes my measurements, helps me with my diet and supplementation. Sends me home with ”homework”. which is basicly workouts to target my problem areas. 

She is sooo awesome and HUGE, and the sweetest person I’ve ever met. She has been in bodybuilding for over 15 years and before that she was in other sports too. Trained a lot of girls to the top 3 and she has her own supplement shop. AND she judges BB competitions in the Netherlands too. We talked for hours. She took my bf%. 28.4 %…. I’m the same since september though. We’ll not entirely true. The thing is I’m now 30 so I have to look for my % in the column 30-39 instead of 17-29.
The strange thing is that I’ve gained weight since than. OVER 8 LBS!!!  I’m a bit puzzled about that. I made a lot of progress in my upper body. My legs stayed quite the same, maybe a little more toned than before. But I didn’t gain any significant amount in inches or lose any. It doesn’t make any sense to me. Oh well…
 
My trainer gave me a new meal plan. Lots and lots of fish and egg- whites. The curious thing is that I’ve started to smell funny. FUNKY! I have a canine sense of smell so I smell things a mile in the air. When it’s just a few inches away and on me all day, the whole day, it drives me crazy!! I don’t use any perfume because of the poignant smell. But now I use half a bottle after showering. hehehe
 
She also gave me “homework” to target my problem areas. Yes Tricep extentions, walking lunges and single leg press twice a week on top of my regular workout-schedule. I have to lose around 18% bf to be competition- ready next fall. Breath… breath… one % at the time… keep breathing!!

I stopped using Gaspari’s, Size On and Super Pump. Some people advice to cycle creatine out for a few weeks. I didn’t even finish using the tubs. It just doesn’t work for me, at least not as good as BSN did. I’m not saying it’s a bad product though. What works for A doesn’t have to work for B. I’m always open for new things. (as long as it’s not life threatening of course) I try before I say: No I don’t like it. 

I made a huge progress using the Cell Mass and the No-xplode. It only gave me that crash feeling after my workouts. (wallet crashed too ;)) I didn’t have this with Gaspari (not really cheap either), but I didn’t feel the rush or pump so you shouldn’t have to feel drained afterwards either, do you? 

I did notice that I don’t get those awful cramps anymore. I’m not talking about sore muscles. Still have those and I LOVE IT! I used to get cramps in the middle of the night while sleeping. Not anymore. Maybe it’s cause I was using creatine, which promotes rapid muscle recuperation????hmmm…. 

I did experience some water retention. (from both) Once again… some people retain water, others don’t.

My energy levell is getting low, but I still can lift as heavy as I normally do. Maybe it will descent as the weeks go by. Hope not. So I’ll be relying purely on my motivation for a while….

I’m ALWAYS open for suggestions!!! I want to get lean and defined!! 

I’m in love.  She’s beautiful, slender, sophisticated, glamorous AND smart. Light to the touch, not complicated. She’s just perfect!

I’m talking about my latest purchase. The LG KU990 Viewty. I’m a gadget freak. She’s the latest on smart phones. And smart she is. 5 mega pixel camera with auto focus and build in flash.  Looks more like a camera, with a huge touchscreen with only 3 keys at the bottom. Send, End and cancel. What else do you need?? On top of all this, it has the ability to upload videos directly to YouTube. I can check my emails, chat, surf the internet, listen to my favorite music….  And yes, you can make phone calls with it too. LOL

I’m training well…. in my opinion, but I’m eating like a pig. And christmas isn’t here yet. I just know I’m going to eat way too much. I gained 7 lbs the past few weeks and I’m jojo-ing my way to my goal. Which seems farther and farther away with every chips, cookies, pizza’s I devour on daily basis.

On top of everything my "trainer" is going to another gym. Leaving me behind… alone… with no clue what to do…. snif, snif. I learn a few things… I’ll do fine. Or just look for somebody else to help me out.

I don’t have as much self- discipline as I had a few months ago. Is it the cold weather? I don’t know. I still love working out and do it 4-5 times a week. But I’m lacking of true passion and will-power. If only I could bring myself to have more self-control. To be more determined.

I’m nagging, I know. Hope you all are having a great day!!

Today we celebrate sint Nicolas. Cheezy rhymes, gifts in creative packings, lots of chocolate and don’t forget the old man on a white horse with his black-painted-faces helpers in funny costumes. It’s just a variation on the santa we all know. Maybe they are distant cousins???  Oh well it’s fun. We sit in a group of friends/ relatives and and draw names from the person you’re supposed to buy a gift for. You make “surprices”. I’ve put a lot of efford in making the wrapping. Sometimes the wrapping costs more than the gift. Last year my friend hand to stick her hand in a hole of a box. It was all sticky with honey, body lotion, shaving cream just to pull out a pair of gold earrings. Hehehe. It’s not about the present but the funny stuff around it. I got a sex-kit which I had to perform a few embarassing positions with my husband. Wearing clothes of course. 

What I have on my wish list for the good santa this year? BSN Lean Dessert and BSN Cellmass. I’m getting broke buying this stuff.