January 11th
Ok, So I just finished P90X AbRipperX. I feel weak as hell. Last night for dinner I had some brown rice with soy protein, a sweet potato (plain) and applesauce. I also had two cups of Smooth move. I am going to get som epsom salt today because my entire body is sooooo sore. I am going to clean my house today and get ready for next week. I am not going to be struggling the way that I was before. I am taking the hydroxycut EFX today as well. I am going to read and get ahead on my coursework. I really feel motivated to actually do something today. Looking through my Fredericks of Hollywood catalog I feel so fat. I am going to buy these awesome dresses in two months from now and I will be excited because they will fit. Also, does anyone have any comments about the treadclimber. I was thinking about getting one and I see that they are on sale now. I am debating. I do not have time to go to the gym and I like working out at home, maybe this is what I can do in the early morning hours before I wake the children and start my day. I can do that for 30 minutes in the morning. I am really debating. I have 6 overflowing baskets of laundry sitting in front of me because I did not do any laundry last weekend when I was sick. Man, I have a lot to do and I feel like I have a little bit of energy to get it done. This morning for breakfast I had a piece of my sons wheat and blueberry waffle. I am not really hungry but I know breakfast is important. I guess by noon I will whip up a protein shake so that I am not starving later on. I am going to weigh in on next friday/saturday and see where I have landed. I have been working but not as hard as I could have nor eating the best for my body. I have been sick but I still feel like I could have done more. Well, anyway it is time for me to get up and get things ready for next week. I have so much that is trying to stress me out right now and I feel like I am to the point of F*$& it. If it gets done it does and if it doesnt it doesnt. LOL, 2009 is my year to be as selfish as I want to be. If nothing is brought to the table by others than they should not expect to get fed. I am a little sick of busting my a$$ in anothers benefit. True, most times helping someone out does not hurt me in any way except for the fact that when I need someone else it never is able to get done. Most recent example of this. My sister asked me to give her $20 so I did, then I texted her 3 days later and asked her to watch the kids for an hours on the following day….well, I am sure u know how the story goes. I dont feel like I am giving up on others, its more like I purposefully avoid their needs. Last week my PI told me that he does not care about anyone else’s time but his own because of course he was accusing me of something that I did not do. And he blatenely told me that he did not care about my time. He is so ill mannered. So I started thinking about that and I was like ok maybe he is right,,,why should anyone care about others time when they can only control themselves….then I though WTF if I am working with you and you completely disregard my time then that means you assume that I am working for you. WTF!!!! So, I have made up my mind regarding this man. I have to go my own route to get this done and I will have to take matters into my own hands. Since it is his opinion that I work for him. This is crazy. Ok, that is really enough for me. Time to get to work. 
Thank you for all that you do! Today is going to be a wonderful day!
V
Post by: AndyaknowV