AndyaknowV’s BodyBlog

Yesterday was my mothers birthday…she would have been 60 years old. I was zooted yesterday…excited and very very energetic. Then —calling myself working out— I hit myself in the face with some equipment and was DOWN FOR THE COUNT!!!! Today I can see and my eye is not as red but I have to see a specialist on Monday or Tuesday because there is a bubble —was next to now is floating back and forth over my cornea—. I am still going to take some updated pics later on today hopefully. I can never get anyone to get over here and take pics of me so majority of the time they are timed pics. Wow, after that experience I really dont know what to say. I was supposed to have so much fun this weekend with my children and my house was going to be clean clean clean and now it is sunday and I still have all the laundry to do neither bathroom is clean and I have a tub full of sheets that were thrown up on EWW!!! I hit myself so hard I was intoxicated….And to top that all off my hair looks a mess because i spent quite a bit of time in the shower cause I was tired and too weak to really move….I was really F(*$#D up yesterday! I also have a new sexy gash on my eyebrow down toward my eye…..yeah baby! lol! I could have been a poster child for not playing around fitness equipment. Well, I am going to do the dinner thing now so I will holla later on and hopefully have some new pics posted! Thanks for all the love!

V

Well, the day is most definately not over for me but I have  a few minutes of down time right now,,,,,and I just wanted to update on what has been going on with me today and with this stack….first off….NO side effects of any kind at all….I have been drinking fluids as I should and eating today…( I know such a shocker!!! lol) but really I feel pretty good. Yesterday plently of people told me that I looked worn out and "beat down" as one person told me. But I guess today I did not look that bad because not a single person made any type of comment about me looking like I was completely overworked. I have not had any out of the roof energy today….no type of jitters….or that eagerness feeling….. So overall I am thinking this is a good stack for me. Thank euphoric feeling is something that I am waiting on. lol. This morning I took the Dren at 730am and then I came to work had 1/2 cup of oatmeal and a Vaporize, 1 tsp brown sugar and 1/4 cup raisins. Then at 830 I took 5 of the Showtimes, then I ate 1/2 of a tuna wrap at 11 and took a Vaporize with that.  Then at 12noon I took 5 more Showtime. I am going to take another Vaporize at 3pm and eat the other half of the tuna wrap. Then when I get home tonight I am going to try and take a protein shake but we will see how that goes because I am tired as #e(( and I dont know if I will be awake much past 9pm.  BUT AT LEAST TODAY IS FRIDAY!!!! PRAISE THE LORD!!! I DIDNT THINK I WAS GOING TO MAKE IT.

Well, as it stands I am still looking for a trainer. I have had a few interesting opportunities presented to me but I guess we will see. Like my perfect man….my perfect trainer will just appear to me out of thin air….LOL! The photo shoot was cancelled for today due to the weather…thank the LORD because I know those pics would have been a disaster….My hair got wet in the shower this morning and whoa buddy!!!! It would have taken me soooo long to try and blow it dry and then actually do some type of cute style to it……But at least that gives me another week to try and work on this body a little so that the picks dont look like someone is having fun with a chocolate pig……lol!!!! I might take some updated body pics tonight just so that I can see "if" there is any type of change…..I mean the weight is going up and down –I weigh myself daily–but my clothes are getting looser…..The only real exercise that I get to do is a little bit of a workout on the weekend…..so I try to eat right during the week but it doesnt always happen…..lol so we will see. Maybe I can get someone to take some pics of me before I turn in —-I am sooooo tired—–.

Well, enough of my day and my drama….how was your day?

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V

LOL today was a day!!! I am tired and restless all at the same time. I thought that I found a trainer but I dont know….his price is a little steep. –inside joke– But really I am starting the new stack tomorrow and I hope that it will give me the energy that I need to get into the shape that I need to be in to get where I want to go……hmmmm sounds like a lot is riding on this combination of pills….maybe it will just be a placebo effect,,,,,lol Well, I have an extremely long day tomorrow so I have to go….hopefully I will have good news to report tomorrow.

V

10.11.08 is the last day. I cannot take it anymore! How about I had a few drinks just to push myself to do it one more time just to make sure I was not tripping……Even with the alcohol I was ready to run away…..I mean really!?!?!!? WTF…..Its not you,,,,,its me….I just honestly dont want it anymore….it doesnt move me like it used to and I cant even pretend when I am tipsy so that should tell you something……Id rather fall asleep….you know when you are that good intoxicated that you are sleepy as hell but fight yourself to stay awake like you are going to miss something…..well I was there and I had rather fallen asleep….for some reason I am just not happy with that and I am giving it up…..tomorrow is a new day.

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V

Today I did a little better on my diet, I need to cut weight of course (Same thing I have been screaming for ages it seems) so I am going to try something a little different. I read about color eating….and I am going to try and exclude white and processed foods from my diet completely. Today I did liquid egg substitute, Taco bell cheesy bean and rice burrito, and one of those new soups in a box from V8 (butternut squash). I think 1 and 3 were really good….the second meal was crazy because I did not even think about it. I was debating on going back to work or going home to take a nap before going back to work and before I knew it I was driving into the parking deck at work chowing down on a burrito. When I was getting out of my car I was like "Dang, I am not supposed to eat white or processed…" Certain foods are like second nature so I think I am going to have to throw in the towel with Taco Bell….being that is really the only fast food place that I eat at….looks like I am going to be cooking a little more or trying to buy quick mini meals - snacks…..which I hate to do! I do not even like buying snacks for my children because for some reason they just disappear! I took the Lipo6 today as I was supposed to so that was a very positive thing. I drank over 2 liters of water which is also a positive thing…..and I am sure that I stayed under 1000 calories which is also a positive thing. I am going to do some yoga-meditation-stretching tonight and a little reading to exercise my mind. Today was an overall good day. I feel a little better about the fact that I didnt overdo the eating….even though I had 1 meal that I did not think through…… I think that I am very much worn out at work….I am not bored with what I do I think that I am just a little tired of doing it….it is very repititive so I have to figure something out on how to motivate myself to do better. Well I plan on workingout a little bit at 8pm so I need to go and make sure the children are situated so they will focus on whatever they are going to do so I can focus on my working out. Thanks for the love and the comment….!!!!!!!! Keep me grounded!!!!!!!

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V

I dunno today I was way tired!!!! WAY tired,,,,I got up an hour late and yes the alarm clock was screaming at me the entire time. I went to work today as usual and did not seem to work too hard at all. How pitiful!!!! LOL Anyway I am going to do better tomorrow. I saw a message today that my ex "still loves his chocolate….but needed to be in solitude from live and living….."I am like WTF does that mean? That made me feel some kind of way and he has yet to respond to me asking him what the hell that means….I am sure that he wouldn’t hurt himself….he has been kinda stressed lately….I just dont like that message. Well, anyway my diet went all to heck today!!!lol I ate and and and ate and ate…..lol and now my stomach hurts. I feel like I am going to puke! Anyway, I said that I got a new flat iron the other day and baby is it the bomb…I did some spiral curls today and it was soooo cute….lol!

Well, I really dont have anything to talk about because my day was kind of blah so I will just try again tomorrow… lol

Much Love!!!!

V