Blind relationships
Well, I am back…sorry I have been out for so long. Update on me: I am eating again but meals are few and far between. Eating just does not make me happy,,,,its kind of depressing. But anyway, I have just come to the conclusion that I am different than the norm. I want to eat to live and nothing else. I am not trying to "starve" to lose weight I just dont get the pleasure I used to…..maybe it is because I am either eating alone (my boyfriend is not in NC anymore) or I am eating with my children. I just dont think it is all that great…at least for me….So today I had a boiled egg, a slice of bread, some trail mix, some sweet potato, and some roll. No opinions necessary I am satisfied with that. I am also continuing to do the salt cleanse,,,,just for the simple fact that I can actually tolerate the "shots" followed by a huge amount of water. I feel good though. Aside from the constant hassle from my boyfriend I started eating because I miss working out and I miss working out hard. So yesterday I worked out but I tried not to do too much…so I just did 45 minutes of cardio focusing on the lower half primarily….today I did a little stair work. I dont know my body is satisfied. Its crazy to say but I almost feel like my weight loss is completely seperate from my eating habits…or at least I wish it were that way…..I like to eat but I constantly overdo it and that pisses me off more that anything….so then I dont eat so that I wont overdo it but then I have to give up the exercising…..sigh! i will get it right eventually.
Well, just found out that my boyfriend isnt coming back for several more weeks so I am supposed to fly out to see him. I am happy about that but it sucks because I want to see him whenever I want. He calls it a "blind relationship". WHATEVER!
U know that I just thought of…this is like my relationship with food….a blind relationship….when i dont have it I am satisfied because I miss it and appreciate it when I do have it but when it is allowed around me I get comfortable and take advantage of it but I still love it just the same as if I didnt have it. LOL! JUST BLIND! lol!
Well, enough of that….my weight has gone up a little since exercising and eating but not too much so I will weigh in tomorrow moring to update progress. Hope everyone has a blessed night and is safe. My advise for today….even though I really suck at this…..DO WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY AND DONT RELY ON THE OPINIONS OF OTHERS TO BE THE FOUNDATION OF YOUR DECISIONS.
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night
V
Post by: AndyaknowV
