AndyaknowV’s BodyBlog

I am a little bit tired. I got up this morning and cleaned my bedroom and my daughters bedroom. My son wil have to wait until next time. I rearranged and have been doing hair and cooking other than that all day long. I am a little bit worn out to say the least. I just got over being sick and I am sooooo glad that is done. Being sick is no fun at all. On the plus side though my house is clean and my registration is taken care of. I was supposed to post some pics but I had a valid reason why I did not…..I am going to make some hot tea tonight just to make sure that I am good. I was getting sick all week long and I think it caught up with me thursday. Well my weight has gone up and down and up and down. I will prob weight in on tuesday or thursday so that I can get back into my routine a little bit before I jump on the scale and cry because it has not moved an inch. Well anyway classes start on monday and I am excited about that. I hope that I can finally finish my thesis asap!!!! The only thing that I need to do now is to submit my secondaries —- since the schools mistakenly did something with my transcripts and they were not properly submitted to AMCAS nor AACOMAS ( I wont say which school) but hopefully that will be taken care of soon enough. I need to find a passport size photo or crop one so that I can get the headshot submitted. Well that is enough of that I guess. I will add more later…peace and blessings.

V

I finally get to go and see my boyfriend on the weekend of September 12th. I am going to try and hit my diet and workout routine as hard as I possibly can over the next 3 weeks so that I can be as awesome as I can. He is wonderful and of course thinks I am great the way that I am but I guess I just have it in my mind that I always need to be better than I was before and because of his job I dont get to see him on a regular basis….I like the "wow" that I get. 

Well, I will be posting some new pictures soon. I am supposed to do some photos tomorrow night so hopefully that will be great. I just tied 20 inches onto my hair and it looks great. I made up a tying technique so we will see how long it lasts because there is no sewing, no glue, no anything but hair and weave……I want the Damito Joe album cover hairstyle that Janet Jackson wore…I think that will look good. But I really dont have too much to talk about so blessings to all and to all a goodnight.

:-)

V

Well, I am back…sorry I have been out for so long. Update on me: I am eating again but meals are few and far between. Eating just does not make me happy,,,,its kind of depressing. But anyway, I have just come to the conclusion that I am different than the norm. I want to eat to live and nothing else.  I am not trying to "starve" to lose weight I just dont get the pleasure I used to…..maybe it is because I am either eating alone (my boyfriend is not in NC anymore) or I am eating with my children. I just dont think it is all that great…at least for me….So today I had a boiled egg, a slice of bread, some trail mix, some sweet potato, and some roll. No opinions necessary I am satisfied with that. I am also continuing to do the salt cleanse,,,,just for the simple fact that I can actually tolerate the "shots" followed by a huge amount of water. I feel good though. Aside from the constant hassle from my boyfriend I started eating because I miss working out and I miss working out hard. So yesterday I worked out but I tried not to do too much…so I just did 45 minutes of cardio focusing on the lower half primarily….today I did a little stair work. I dont know my body is satisfied. Its crazy to say but I almost feel like my weight loss is completely seperate from my eating habits…or at least I wish it were that way…..I like to eat but I constantly overdo it and that pisses me off more that anything….so then I dont eat so that I wont overdo it but then I have to give up the exercising…..sigh! i will get it right eventually.

Well, just found out that my boyfriend isnt coming back for several more weeks so I am supposed to fly out to see him. I am happy about that but it sucks because I want to see him whenever I want. He calls it a "blind relationship". WHATEVER!

U know that I just thought of…this is like my relationship with food….a blind relationship….when i dont have it I am satisfied because I miss it and appreciate it when I do have it but when it is allowed around me I get comfortable and take advantage of it but I still love it just the same as if I didnt have it. LOL! JUST BLIND! lol!

Well, enough of that….my weight has gone up a little since exercising and eating but not too much so I will weigh in tomorrow moring to update progress. Hope everyone has a blessed night and is safe. My advise for today….even though I really suck at this…..DO WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY AND DONT RELY ON THE OPINIONS OF OTHERS TO BE THE FOUNDATION OF YOUR DECISIONS.

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night

V 

My goodness gracious……There are so many reasons that people fast and I think that sometimes the benefits are often overlooked because people hear that there is no eating and they automatically freak. Fasting has many healthy attributes. I appreciate the comments!!!! Good and not so good!!!! I lost a bunch of weight at the beginning of this year and I have basically hit a wall and that is one of my reasons for fasting. Fasting is also easy for me being that my problem with weight loss is that I do not eat enough….yeah it is a terrible thing I know…but that is the fact. I can go for forever and not eat and when I do eat I can eat excessively at one sitting until I am about to throw up…..I cannot explain it but food is not all that attractive to me…..Let me give you an example:

Since I begun the Masters cleanse I have not had a single problem with the exception that I cannot drink the salt cleanse. I have not had hunger pangs, no headaches, nothing out of my usual…because I am used to not eating. But of course, everyone I know tells me that I should eat. I went (before I started the cleanse) with a coworker to a chinese buffet for lunch one random day and I ate so much I could not breath!!! Seriously, after the first plate I was full but that did not stop the second or third plate. I ate about a pound of plaintains (my favorite food), 10-12 crab rangoons, 3 salmon steaks, a huge plate of green beans, lobster and cheese, several fried shrimp, and several spring rolls…..and the only reason I stopped was because we had to leave and go back to work. I dont even know what is feels like to be hungry anymore. Even after fasting for a week,,,, I still dont know how it feels to be hungry. I am sure it is all mental and I know the first thing everyone is going to say is "just stop eating when you are full" but that is exactly the problem. The eating just does not stop….so I dont go to places like that where I can eat and eat and eat and eat,,,,,,Normally I cook at home everynight and that is prob what helped at the start of the year with the weight loss in addition to the phentermine given to me by my doctor but I dont want to be on phentermine for the rest of my life and I no longer qualify because of the weightloss. I consistently follow the positive changes that I have made : Dont eat animals, limit fried foods (dont even cook it in my home), focus on eating colors,…..I mean the list can go on and on. Anyway enough of that…..basically fasting is a mental thing for me. I need my mind and body to be in sync and it is OK to "start from stratch" No one will die from missing a meal…and certainly not me. Now for weightloss purposes yeah I need to do better as far as the eating goes I agree but for my sanity, I will be fasting. The body will correct itself and I truely believe that….One thing that I think is soooo important is listening to your body….not to everyone who has lost weight or who is successful at yoyo dieting.

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