Fear of Failure
Sitting here, listening to the song of 3 Doors Down called "It’s not my time" I just realized that I might have a deep seeded fear. A fear of failure. Fear that I wont succeed in life, won’t be somebody. That those around me will be disappointed… It held me down for 20 years of my life… I allowed it to hold me…. I wouldn’t do one thing of another because of being afraid that I won’t succeed and will be a loser. Some fear of responsibility also. I also just hate losing. It’s probably because I have a disease - Perfectionism! Wanna do everything perfectly and be the best from the first time. Couldn’t forgive my mistakes. And I’ve made lots of them, hell, everybody makes them…
I’m headed for a workout now… those who like good music - check out 3 Doors Down newest album 
Adrian
