AfteraDream’s blog

YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D

I’m back in the gym. I feel so great (and tired ) after a Monday morning workout! It energized me. I was even happy to get out of bed and  meet a new day!!! I worked out abs and chest today. Unfortunately I had lost some strength in these almost two weeks I hadn’t trained…

I’m off to work now!

I Will

I decided to do an experiment. Since experience is a very very valuable thing in this world I will experiment with my workouts. I might be wrong and I wont gain weight because of it but I gain experience.

So, I’ll be working out 4 times a week. Working out one muscle group a day and then that group gets a week of rest. I’ll train Chest/abs on Monday, Legs/abs on Tuesday, resting on Wednesday, then Biceps/triceps/abs/traps on Thursday and Back/Delts/abs on Friday. I might change one day into Saturday when I’m free on them to make it two days of rest.

On other news…. it’s real bad… I’ve lost hell f a lot of weight and I’ve got about two weeks to get back to 55kilos..

I Will

I’m back after rough time… I was bankrupt for a few weeks… the worst thing is I wasn’t able to workout for a week and eat how is needed to gain weight… Well, I hope by July 9th I’ll be back to  55 kilos I had on June… I also bought electronic scales which will be more precise Good news is I’m back at workout on Monday!!!! I can’t wait for tit!! :D

About being a man:
"Becoming a man is when you fall down, you don’t pretend it didn’t hurt, you don’t pretend it wasn’t a mistake, but you don’t look for someone to come and make it all better. You know who can make it better the best - Yourself!!! You know what you need to do and you know that YOU have to do it. And sometimes it may be easier to let someone else do it for you - but you do it, because it’s nice to get help from other people, but it’s absolutely vital not to need help from other people!"

About winning:

" It ain’t how hard you hit; it’s how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward, how much you can take and keep moving forward. That’s how winning is done" - From movie Rocky 3 (I think)

"I have missed more than 9000 shots i my career. I have lost almost 300 games. On 26 occasions I had been entrust last shot and I missed. I have failed over and over and over again in my life. And that is precisely why I succeed!" - Michael Jordan

"Life is not  number of breaths you take, but it’s the moments that take your breath away!"

"To hell with circumstances, I create opportunities"

"The life you want always comes at a price. Everything comes at a price. Nothing is free. No matter what it is in life you choose, there will be price tag attached. And what if you don’t want anything? That comes at a price too.. The price is usually poverty, sickness, boredom, apathy, mediocrity, bad relationships and so on…"

"The ones who fail are the ones who don’t try."

"Ultimately, man shouldn’t ask what the meaning of life is, but he must rather recognize that it is he who is asked. In a word, each man is questioned by life; and he can answer to life by answering for his own life; to life he can only respond by being responsible"

"The difference between a successful person and others is not a lack of strength, not a lack of knowledge, but rather a lack of will."

Cheers

Well, this is gonna be one busy week… two exams to pass, work. And my gym pass expires. I won’t be going to gym probably… I feel like doing a sin already … but I will definitely work out at home on Sunday. I promise! And maybe I’ll squeeze another workout on Wednesday at home..

I have chosen to add another goal to my life. It is associated with my (future) career. I will become a lawyer. And a good one! I’ll have to become a very good student to achieve it. And balancing out will be needed between bodybuilding, studying and working. Plus I’d like to add some socializing in between… I’ll b a busy bee in the future for sure

I Will,

Adrian

I had a tough break recently…  You could see that by my  few last blogs… but  ain’t NO MORE of that!!! I’ve got 3 exams coming and I have to get good marks from them. That’s it! No time for regrets, depression, confusion and negativity. Tough break is over. And it’s over ‘cuz I said so! I have to thank one BodySpace member a lot - Melinda F. Thank you! She is a one great, smart, beautiful and supportive woman! It’s because of people like that BodySpace is a great place.. OK, I gotta go study and eat, then eat and study.

Cheers

Damn… I lost weight…. it’s 54kg again… fcuk….I had gained fat it appears not muscle….FCUK……..:(((((((((( so disappointed. Of course I had a hard week at work, but damn didn’t think I’d lose weight… Oh, well, I guess I’ wont weigh myself until July 9t instead of daily…arghhhhhhhh….:( thank goodness I bought new supplement..it should help me gain back weight… And gain it back I WILL!!!!!

Today I had kind of realization. I think Bodybuilding (if I can call myself bodybuilder…nah, I can’t I’m just an amateur at best) makes me happy. It’s my shelter, it’s my dreams coming true. Not all dreams but the one most important now. I enjoy every minute in the gym. Hell, that’s the place where I enjoy myself and I forget my shortcomings, my mistakes.. I love being myself there. In other life "things" I’m not as happy. Stupid mistakes happen, immaturity,acting stupid, not knowing myself fully even. I really am happiest I ever was, now that I have a dream, have a goal, have what I love doing, but still…there is something not right… Even as I write now I am confused…I can’t find balance (for now)… I dream BIG! And building a  great body is just a part of it… It will probably be the easiest dream to reach, because I absolutely love and enjoy working out. I understood that BB is what drives me now, keeps me alive… But I want so much more …so much more than great looking body, health and strength. I dream so big and want it so bad I start kicking my ass for not having it… not being able to achieve it. I see mistakes, but can’t stop repeating them. I need more will.. I thought BB will help me develop it..but… since I love this sport I’m motivated already..no need to exercise "will muscle" a lot here… So I’m confused now… I’m headed for success in bodybuilding… but am I headed for success in life????????????????????????? If I keep doing what I’ve done..then not really. I’ll just be an average guy… shit… I don’t want to be so…I’ve actually started feeling bad about putting bodybuilding in front of studies…. I’m concerned with my future… Enough ranting already.. I have to get my head straight…

Wow… I haven’t felt that sick after a workout in a looong time….I must have been exausted after yesterday’s working 11 hours… today I had a workout of 50 mins and last 15 minutes were done with fear of not throwing up. Something was so wrong, stuck in my throat… I thought I was gonna throw up… I didn’t do one exercise of abs training. Feel bad about that, but really wasn’t able to do it. Anyway, I had a good workout. Trained Biceps for the first time since I have a job… Feel good and waiting for next week to train again!!!!!!

I was waiting for this morning all month ! The weigh-in. So after the month of workouts and being here at BodySpace I gained 1 kilo! A little bit more maybe. So it would be between 2,2-3 lbs! Nice All is going as planned here. I have to keep gaining 2,2-3 lbs a month. About 50lbs still to go.

Gonna go eat,

Adrian