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When I first set out to lose weight, I set out to do so with purpose. To get a guy back.

 I also thought it would help me figure some things out. Like why my family life was not what I wanted it to be.

 And I thought it would fix friendships from years past that had gone awry.

 There were just so many things wrong in my life at the time. I just knew that losing weight was the key to going back and fixing everything.

 I had lost weight once before. I was 19 at the time. I think I was anyway. The weight came back on so quickly, it was kind of a blur.

 But for that one moment that I was at goal, I bought this dress. THE dress.

 And I looked good in it.

 I wore that dress everywhere, and I was sad when it no longer fit. I mourned for that dress and I longed for that dress.

 And it was the first thing to cease fitting, because it was tight, y’all! It buttoned down the back, so it was very unforgiving.

 Let me just tell you, no one needs to wear a dress that buttons up the back unless it fits just right! And that dress no longer did!

 But I couldn’t bear to part with that dress.

 I loved it. It represented something to me. GOAL. The weight I had not been able to maintain.

 So I tucked it away at the back of my closet…for the next 15 years!

 And the day I realized I was that size again, I couldn’t wait to pull it out and slip…it….but …Oh dear God. What is that?

 It is HIDEOUS!

 Fifteen years had passed and that dress was god-awful ugly! It had shoulder pads any football player would envy and flowers as big as my head. And they were mustard yellow. And it was like a bad piece of upholstery fabric had made its way to my closet.

 And I had to laugh. I didn’t even try it on for posterity! Because what if somebody saw me in it? It really was that bad!

 And you know? I didn’t want that old boyfriend back as much as I thought.

 And my size has nothing to do with my family situation.

 And that dress only served to remind me, I can’t let living in past memories keep me from making future goals.

 I got rid of that dress and bought me a new one. A slinky little black and white one.

 I needed a new dress for my new life.

 Losing weight did not answer any of my questions. But…it did give me the answers to some questions I didn’t even know existed. Like…how much better could my life possibly be?!

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