A Half Marathon Personal Record
Saturday, October 27th, 2007Today’s Run: Half Marathon
Run Time: 2:14:32
Total Miles to Date: 816.1m (1,313.4km)
Thoughts on the Run:
WOW!
What an experience.
I’ll preface by saying that I have so much respect for longer distances … every time I run anything over a 10K, I’m reminded of just how difficult and how much willpower and stamina it takes to finish the run.
Today had it’s ups and downs (no, it wasn’t hilly).
It was just over a year ago that I became inspired to set a goal to run an ultra-marathon. Like many things in life, I’ve had to learn through doing the hard way just what that goal encompassed. When I was losing fat, I had no clue how much I’d need to lose or how fast to lose it, so I set lofty goals and was frustrated at first. However, I persisted and eventually found that combination of the right type of training and nutrition and, most importantly, the mindset that "clicked" with my lifestyle and empowered me to release 65 pounds (29 kilograms).
When I set my goal for an ultra, I just focused on the 50 and said I’ll fill in the miles in between. I had run a half marathon before … while it was tough, I had actually trained for it in just seven weeks. It was tough and there was a lot of walking on hills (this was in the beautiful Paha Sapa of South Dakota on the historic and breathtakingly beautiful Mickelson Trail). But I did it.
I would learn quickly as this journal has evidenced, however, to respect the distance.
Some people are born runners. Some people fight for it. I’m definitely the latter. I’ve been running fairly consistently for almost two years now and it still takes every ounce of my will and focus to complete a run. It’s completely different than what I was used to during my weight loss journey. I’ve lifted heavy weights until it felt like every fiber of my body would tear, working out so intensely that I could barely walk the next day and had coworkers concerned over whether I was injured. I’ve sprinted so hard and fast that I’m not even sure if I was breathing and felt my legs burn and pushed speeds relative to my own experience that still amaze me when I look back at my logs. I’ve also held the discipline of a regimented, restrictive nutrition program for weeks straight without the slightest deviation to reach the elusive ultra low levels of body fat so many people strive for but only a few obtain.
I’m sharing this not to brag, but to put my distance running in perspective … I’ll gladly go back to those previous challenges, because they seem easy compared to how I feel when running distances. It’s like polar opposites in me … one side desires to push the limits and run, but my body resists kicking and screaming the entire way.
Let me describe today’s run, for example.
My alarm buzzed at 4:45 and I woke up to coffee with heavy cream and a bagel with Nutella (a cocoa hazelnut spread). This may seem odd to some but after months of experimentation it’s the pre-run meal that seems to settle in me the best and provide the best energy. Of course in addition to the coffee I drink ample water as well.
I performed my ritual: baby power in the shoes to keep the feet dry, taping my chest to avoid rawness, cooking oil sprayed on my legs to avoid chafing. I decided to go with a long-sleeved technical shirt and shorts. I always wear my bandana because it keeps the sweat out of my eyes, my head from being burned in the summer and my head from freezing in the winter. I was on the road by 5:45 (the race started at 7:45).
I got to the race in no time and had strategic parking right next to the “pit stops” (temporary bathrooms). This meant I could stay warm in my car and venture out to empty any contents of my digestive system that might pose problems on the run. My biggest enemy on long runs is usually my stomach … I get horrible pains and ironically after experimentation it seems drinking just plain water, avoiding gels and sports drinks is the way to keep it the most settled (in the heat I take salt capsules for electrolytes).
I finally left my car and moseyed over to the start line about 20 minutes before the start. I proceeded to jangle which was a great warm-up. Before long, we were lined up and ready to go.
I had contemplated several strategies for the run. This is where respect comes back into the equation. I really felt strongly that having hit around 2:20 before, with my training and recent progress I should be able to tackle a 2-hour half marathon. After all, I did 8:20 for 5K, this would be slowing down a full minute and doing 4 of those. Not too bad, right?
So the gun sounded and we started.
Let’s break this into two phases: part 1 and part 2.
Part 1 was a solid 9-minute mile pace. I had a great stride. I felt good. I wasn’t out of breath. Nothing hurt. I thought, “Wow, this is really happening … I can hold this pace for the duration.” Mile 1 came and went. Mile 2 did the same. Mile 3 had us on the Silver Comet trail, which I’ve trained on in the past. It was familiar, but as an out-and-back I knew I’d be only cutting off a small slice of what I had been used to in the past (about 5 miles of trail on an out-and-back instead of the 10 I had worked up to last season).
As we approached the turn-about the front-runners came blazing by. It was fun to watch them going past, different expressions and levels of exertion. It was inspiring to me and I picked up the pace a bit.
I reached the turn-about.
Could it have been psychological?
I’m not sure.
But the problems started there. I hit some sort of wall. What happened was that my legs just stopped working. They suddenly ached all over. This was similar to what I experienced in my marathon attempt, but there was no way it was due to heat or lack of hydration. It just simply HURT to take every step. OK, so guess what? I’m not the only one out there hurting. There was a 10-year old running just ahead of me. And perhaps the most inspirational was someone who was very obviously overweight - probably a solid 20 pounds heavier than me - but so dedicated and determined, he was keeping a steady, focused pace and was in front of me. How inspiring!
So I decided, you know what? It hurts. Sure. But that’s what this is about. So I pushed. And my pace slowly began to dwindle … no more 9-minute miles. I saw the 2 hour window slowly slipping away.
Then the waves of stomach pains hit me. These aren’t just little cramps. It was stabbing, sharp. This is what hit me halfway through my half marathon last year. This time, however, I wasn’t going to let it sway me. I stepped off the side of the road, squatted down until the spasms passed, then stepped back on and started running.
This is where it got interesting. The pain I was in was something that in the past would have driven me to simply stop running. No, I wouldn’t quit the race, but I’d be walking the last of it. It was simply miserable … stomach pain, legs aching with each step, and every time I tried to pick up the pace I’d get short of breath and dizzy and feel nauseous.
OK, so I figured out that I wasn’t going to be pushing a faster pace.
BUT I WASN’T GOING TO STOP.
Both of my previous half marathons involved a lot of walking. Ironically, both had times very close my personal record today … because I’d run 9 minute miles, then walk, then run hard, then walk, and basically make up enough speed in the beginning that I could afford the slow crawl at the end.
This time, however, I was determined to break my record and that meant NOT STOPPING.
So about 4 miles out I stopped making it a half marathon and made it a 4 mile run. Heck, I do these ALL THE TIME, right? Easy. Well, in the state I was in, I could have been another 12 miles. That’s what it felt like. But I stayed focus and said, OK, we’re not going at a breakneck speed here but we’re going to keep going. I pushed as hard as I could before I felt like I was going to have to stop, and stayed right below that level. 4 miles to go … turned to 3. The kid and the larger guy kept stopping to walk or catch their breath. I’d pass them. Then they’d blaze by. This happened over and over. I encouraged the kid and let him know how fantastic I thought he was. He smiled and thanked me.
There were so many reasons I was able to make it those last 4 miles without stopping (and yes, I’ll be honest, sometimes it was SLOW, but I was still pushing ahead). I thought of my daughter and how broken I felt at the marathon having to explain to her why I wasn’t getting a medal and didn’t finish. I thought of the example the kid was setting, and of the other guy. I thought of all of the amazing people who passed me … it didn’t matter if they were old or young, men or women, overweight or underweight, of any nationality … they were out there, dedicated, going through the same process as the rest of us but refusing to give up.
I recalled a situation in my first half marathon. I was in town but disoriented and didn’t know how far I had to go. I was on pavement going uphill and the sun was blazing and I just stopped and started walking. Two guys probably in their 60s passed me and jokingly reprimanded me and said I needed to stick with them … and that I did until I reached the finish.
I wasn’t going to have anyone reprimand me today. I was going to do it on my own. So I did it.
There the finish was. I was even able to pick up the pace and push to the end.
And then it came: the respect.
13 miles is nothing to joke about. Nothing to take for granted. I had honestly gone into it thinking, “OK, this is my third half marathon … ” but at that finish line I realized for me there couldn’t be “just a half marathon” … whichever race it is, it is THE race … the tears came when I saw the time and despite not hitting my 2 hour goal still beat last year, and then again when they placed the medal around me.
And then I thought about what I’d won. I’d done it without quitting expect for those few breaks to let my stomach settle. I’d done it faster than before. I’d learned humility and respect at the same time. I’d finished. I’d set an example for my daughter to follow. I’d learn from others who set their own examples and shared a unique experience with 1,499 other runners. And I’d won back my respect for the distance.
I also didn’t feel as “dead” after this. My other races I’d feel sick all day and could barely move. This time I stayed on feet, soaked up my appreciation for what had transpired, then came home and enjoyed a date with my daughter.
This Road to Ultra can’t be rushed. I’ve barely begun to scratch the surface. Right now it’s not even a road to ultra because the next milestone that I haven’t conquered yet is a marathon. I have to learn to respect the marathon and master it before I can consider going beyond.
I had set a goal for the Thanksgiving Day marathon but our plans changed as we are going to visit family in Florida. I’ll be doing a Turkey Trot 10K instead of a marathon but more importantly, I’ll be running it with my mom. There is no pace goal this time, only looking forward to the companionship and sharing something with mom we haven’t experienced yet - running a race together. I get so excited thinking of the things that lay ahead that I’ll be able to share with my daughter.
That was my favorite part of today … showing her the medal, placing it over her head, and seeing the pride and joy she had wearing it.
Thank you for letting me share an awesome experience.
Warmly,

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