Considering hanging up the figure shoes
So I know I’ve written on here before about the hard time I am having after this season with gaining weight. You know, it has been a really rough road and i have honestly never ever felt worse about my body - even before I started competing. So now I have been sitting back trying to seriously think about what makes me happier…
I try to bulk as much as i can in my off season and Terry and I did really well last season - partly because he had me convinced that I needed to gain some weight to gain some muscle and we gained 6 lbs of muscle this past year. But without him by my side right now, I am having a really hard time thinking that I have anything attractive right now and I just feel like I am really heavy. So I have been sitting back thinking of whether I was even gong to get on stage again anyways so I should maybe just focus on staying leaner right now. My abs are gone, my legs are fat - I feel really bulky, so maybe it’s simpler and better for me to just get some good strong cardio workouts and eat a bit cleaner and get some days in there where I lift heavy and maybe I just consider competing down the road when I am mentally in a better position…?
i just want to be myself again and not spend my days thinking about how I look and what I’m eating… Just 7 lbs down would make me really happy I think. I guess at this time that’s what I am going to do. I’ll keep you posted. Any advice, thoughts? anyone???
May 18, 2008 at 5:55 pm
You have to do what you feel is right. But I know that you have a lot of support here and they would be willing to help you get through your problems. You have the genetic makeup to compete, but if mentally you aren’t there, then wait.
May 18, 2008 at 5:56 pm
It sounds like you are going through the same thing as I am right now. If you look at my blog from yesterday you will laugh. I think that when the weather starts getting nice your mind plays games. For me it’s because it’s time to wear shorts and a bathing suit. In my opinion you look great and definitely think you should keep on going. Hope this helps hun!
May 19, 2008 at 1:32 pm
You done a lot of contest. Take some time off and see what happen when you take it easy on yoru body and working out. Give it a rest and I bet you get great results latter on.
May 24, 2008 at 6:06 am
Wendy,
You have to do whats makes you happy, right now you just got married, which is a good thing. Enjoy your marriage and enjoy life. You worked hard and you still look wonderful, sometimes in life we dont realize how bless that we are. Being a figure competitor is the only thing in the world and i’m sure you know that. You are smart and intellegent. Stay positive and God Bless you and your Husband
May 24, 2008 at 6:14 am
type correction, i meant being a figure competitor isnt the only thing in the world