OK - Missing some things here
So - here’s the deal. I miss my competition body. I tried on my wedding dress yesterday and guess what? It didn’t fit 
I gained too much weight, Almost 12 lbs since the show and I couldn’t get it zipped. Now i know that I am not supposed to stay at that weight forever, but I definitely wanted to cry! Then I was looking at pictures from being on stage and that just made me sick. I definitely can’t look at them without feeling horrid about myself!
And, I miss my trainer. I have been training myself and it just isn’t the same. Haven’t seriously lifted without him by my side in 3 years - well, ever actualy. Because he has been with me since the beginning. Makes me sad.
May 13, 2008 at 6:04 pm
Hey there Wendy,
Im glad I found your blog…you have been on my mind today. Hang in there…remember the woman who demolished the competition on stage is within you still. You have’nt changed inside of you. No doubt trainers are awesome…but you made the progress, you kicked your own butt into shape……
I know what you mean by being discouraged when "life" causes your body to change. Don’t worry 12 pounds in nothing for a warrior like you. When my body does wierd stuff like that it helps me to remembr that Im not in a fitness sprint…Im in a fitness marathon..this is my life my journey not a race. Hang in there my friend
May 13, 2008 at 7:29 pm
Wendy, settling into off-season can be so hard. I remember when I saw you at the figure posing seminar and you said you are bulking…you must feel strong and great! I smiled and nodded, but inside I wanted to scream "do you see how big I am!!!!!!!" LOL!!! So, try to remember that you will see that size again, but for now you have to be at a more doable weight….and why aren’t you training with Terry anymore???