A figure competitor’s path

So it’s 2:20 a.m. the morning of my second to last show. And for as much as last week I didn’t thinkI was ready to get on stage, this week I am - as you can tell that I am up at 2 a.m. the night before. I think at this point I am way over tired. I am 7 days from the wedding and 11 hours from being on stage again. Sometimes I forget how much I loe this sport.

I got tanned up last night and I am actually tighter this week than I was last weekend, which is good, we’ll just have to see what happens on stage this weekend. I am competing against a very good friend who also happens to be fantastically ripped on Sunday so I have no bigger hopes than that of a second or third place finish for myself, which I am completely fine with. It is an NPC show who brings judges in who have previously sat on the panel of Arnold and Olympia. Last year I placed third so we’ll se ehow I do this year. I take a lot of stock in what those judges have to say. It’s an important show for me. So I just need to get through Saturday and try to stay as tight as possible for Sunday. Then guess what? It’s all over then.

So what do I do? Well, I get married then in 6 days when all this is over. Sometimes it hasn’t even hitme yet that I am going to be a bride in 7 days and then it hits me hard and almost knocks the wind out of me. I am so so lucky to be going through this competition season with the support of Brad by my side. He knows what I need and takes my ups and downs in stride. He’s one amazing person and I will be so proud to behis wife!

Know what worries me though? That transition from dieting back into food. Technically with the way food is going to be grabbed on the fly this weekend with the shows back ot back the way they are, they diet was done yesterday. I had Terry take some pics of me after I was tanned, my abs were ripped up yesterday so I remember what I looked like, because it’s soon to be off-season and all the definition goes away. That’s a tough mental point and there is definitely some depression there, but I just need to remember that 11% body fat is not healthy year round and i have to gain sme weight for the greater good.

So when these shows are over and the wedding is over, what do I do? I’ll probably beon bodyspace all the time because I am so bored with not heading to the gym every day 3 times a day and cooking food! Anyway, I’ll keep you posted on the show results this weekend and as soon as I can shrink some of my pics down to size, I will post them for you all.

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