I think I’m a noodle
So low carb brain got to thinking yesterday and I have decided that I may resemble a noodle. Sometimes I look at myself and I feel like I look so buff and then sometimes i look at myself and I decidedly look like a noodle. Long and stringy. Especially next to other people. You know, everyone’s body is different, but how do you not compare yourself with the guy next to you?
You know, I know I may not be the most muscular woman out there and to be perfectly honest, I don’t really want to be overly muscular. I want to be lean and fit with nice round muscles and a nice shape. But then I think perhaps I am not big enough and there’s something that I could do differently or better but there isn’t. I am who I am and I can’t compare myself against everyone else, right? Becuase if I do then I wonder who the heck I am to even be getting on stage.
Know why I am getting on stage? Because I believe I have a shot. Most of the time i believe it. Sometimes though, I wish I wasn’t so critical of myself, it’s always negative, never positive. I stare at everyone else wondering if they have something I don’t have. Why is that. But here’s the even bigger question, is my negativity toward myself fueling my desire? If I thought I was good then I guess I wouldn’t still be pushing to be even better right, so the negativity is good????
Ugggh - I do wish I could like what I see though. Oh well, like I said in my previous blog, it won’t end until I put the suit on, get the hair done and get up on stage. And i have to do everything in my power to make sure that I am there in the best possible shape I can be in. Otherwise all this is for naught and I don’t want this to be for nothing.
Did any of this blog make sense to anyone, because I can’t even be sure it made sense to me! Oh well, sorry. Not going to try to edit it, just dumping thoughts I guess. 3.8% body fat to go. Think I can do it in 6 weeks? I do!
February 24, 2008 at 11:44 am
Your blog makes perfect sense Wendy!! I think this drive you are talking about….to continue to always improve…is why this is a sport in the first place!! If we didnt have the drive and the wish to keep making ourselves bettter and better….we could eat!!! LMAO
February 24, 2008 at 11:54 am
Hey that happends to me all the time. Sometimes I think I look pretty big or well toned. Then see pictures or someone else in the gym and fill all small again like I’m not working hard enough. But I agree to what Stormiorsini said above about it being a drive to always continue to improve.
So stay focused and keep up the good work!!
D.
February 24, 2008 at 11:59 am
Makes perfect sense to me too. Some days I feel lean, and that I’m right on track, and the next I look at my butt and think…there isn’t enough time to get it looking good. I agree with the others…it is the drive, and ambition to keep going and not give up.
Keep it up!!
February 24, 2008 at 12:14 pm
"If I thought I was good then I guess I wouldn’t still be pushing to be even better right, so the negativity is good????"
Add me to the "makes perfect sense to me" column.
I remember reading a weight training book by Bob Hoffman about a hundred years ago and he mentioned just that concept. That the people who it is so "easy" for just don’t always have the drive to improve that someone who perhaps has to work a little harder for those results.
If you’re a noodle then you’re a smart noodle. And you know what they say about smart noodles, right? THEY go on to become DIESEL noodles!
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Hmm. Perhaps I need to reword that.
:)
February 24, 2008 at 12:19 pm
Okay, all joking aside this time. I just looked at your progress pics.
You look great. The tan will be easy courtesy of Pro-Tan and Dream Tan so don’t worry about that, right? And you have a pleasing and very "Figure" structure. I think you’re going to do well.
Best wishes in your competition!