A figure competitor’s path

I know, I haven’t been on in quite a while and I’m sorry. Did anyone ever realize how freakin busy life gets 6 weeks from a show and 8 weeks from a wedding? Yeah, that’s right, I get married 8 weeks from tomorrow. But getting through the shows has been top on my mind and my fiancé has been absolutely amazing through it all. My body fat is down again, not by much, but enough to keep me plugging along. I know I am not nearly there and I count my lucky stars that I still have 6 weeks to go. But this is also where it gets interesting. Couple things have been happening lately. First and foremost, this point has become purely mental. The meals and the workouts and everything is mental now. I have to actually psych myself up for a workout and talk my body through each and every exercise, but I get through them. Next week, I am going to start 3 a days some days, I am usually doing 2 a day at this point, so I will be adding in a 3 a day, lunchtime workout now. I have a small gym that I am friends with the owner and he lets me use it to slam out some cardio on my lunch hour. I usually go over for 30 minutes and then shower and get back to work. I am not going to do that 5 days a week though, probably just 3. I need somewhere to work up to if I have trouble continuing to lose soon. But what’s neat is that every day, as I start to lean out just a touch more, I see things I didn’t see yesterday. Like a small muscle coming out in my leg or a new vein in my arm. The problem is, or maybe it’s a good thing, I’m still super critical of myself and I am NOT at all happy yet with what I see when I look in the mirror. Oh yeah and lighting and a tan make all the difference. In my bedroom, my legs look good, in the mirror at the gym, they don’t. But as I am getting a tan, that’s definitely helping. Well point is, I am 0.3% higher than the lowest body fat I have ever been and I am probably at least 1% lower than I was on stage last season. And I know I won’t see the whole package wrapped up until April 5th when I put the suit on and I have the tan and everything, because that’s when it finally comes together for me. The tan and the suit and the hair and the makeup and the stage lights, it all makes it all real. I am just so thankful that there’s still 6 weeks to go because I feel like I am going to need every single day to get to where I want to be.

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