A figure competitor’s path

Well - 12 weeks till show time! Little by little I see my body leaning out a bit. The temptation for food is always there but I have been really very good. I have a party tonight, but I am going to be good! Last night I made cookies and I sat there smelling them like Pavlov’s dog I was salivating. I wanted them so much I almost felt like I was going to puke - so I wrapped them up and went to take a shower. I made it without touching even a one. I was pretty proud of myself. This sport is just so purely mental.

 And after we make it to the show, I get married. Sometimes I think I’m a crazy fool for doing a show with a wedding 6 days later - but hey, do what you love and love what you do, right?

Today I succumbed to weakness. I opened a candy bar and was going to just eat a small piece and I wound up eating the whole thing! It was so delicious! A Fifth Avenue - peanut buttery chocolatey deliciousness! But I worked it off in my workout tonight and I am back on track! I felt quite guilty to say the least!

I know it’s possibel to lose weight too fast. I think I may be doing it. You know, just 2 weeks ago, I was blogging that I was frustrated because the scale wasn’t moving. But for the past 3 days, evey day I get up I am one pound lighter and I’m not sure if that can even be right. Especially because I am following the diet to a "t" every day. So it’s not like I am cutting to get leaner.

I actually just changed the battery in my scale because it wasn’t working at all the past couple days, I had to steop on it like 15 times and when I finally got on it just right was when it took a reading, so I don’t know if the scale is being funny or I am just losing. I’ll have to have Terry take body fat today and see if that’s changed because that’s what I should ultimately go by. Besides, even though the scale seems to keep dropping, it’s not like I feel any skinnier. Oh well, who knows. I guess I should just enjoy the weigth loss success and not ask too many questions. I just don’t want to burn out before the time is right. I have 10 lbs to go and 12 weeks to do it. I think I can manage that!

This is a site designed by my trainer Terry Stokes who specializes in training for women and figure competitors. You don’t need to have a desire to compete or be super skinny to get good information from this site. There are many excellent articles about diet, weight loss, common mistakes women make in training and sample workouts. Check it out.

 www.hardbodyfigure.com

So I had a really rough day yesterday with cravings and everything, but I made it through, nice and stong. Didn’t touch anything I wasn’t supposed to have and that was a bif feat for me.

It just feels like when you wake up the next morning, you should be rewarded for your efforts, right. Nothing. The scale never moved. I wish I could wake up and weigh myself and see an instant reward for all my hard work. I have been at the same weight now for almost a week. That gets just a touch frustrating. Terry is going to look at my diet though and maybe make some adjustments so I can see those numbers moving again!

So my cravings were working over time today. I know I know, I’ve blogged 3 times today, but I have been focused on nothing but food today. I actually ate a cough drop for pleasure today. Pretty sick, huh?

It’s going to be a rough diet day. It was about 9:30 this morning and I already wanted pizza. How do you crave pizza at 9:30? Then the more I craved it, the more I wanted other random stuff and the hungrier I got. I hate cravings. They are mentally hard to get through! But so far so good. I texted a friend who said she’d always be there for me and true to her word, she was. She talked me through it and just texted me again to see how I was holding up. Happy to say, I have not caved in. And I won’t. This is the season to rock and small weaknesses don’t stand a chance.

I have pants for all sizes. As I have progressed in my competing, I have gone out and bought pants in various sizes, just so I have something to wear as I get skinnier. Well this morning, I got up and put my old "fat" pants on and they were just too big. So I graduated into my middle skinny pants. They fit nice and show the benefits of my work so far. It’s addicting though - now I can’t wait until they too are too big!

I went to the Winter Classic yesterday, the outdoor hockey game between the Sabres and the Penguins (of course the Sabres lost). Well I took food to tailgate, a chicken breast, a whole wheat roll and a piece of cheese. Well I did well before the game, but after the game we were staving. I was stuck in the parking lot for more than an hour and my fiance and I decided to eat some of the cheese tray we had brought. So I have about 10 cheese and crackers.

Well, I’m not sure if it was the fact that I didn’t eat enough yesterday, because my body is used to eating every 2.5-3 hours or if my body just isn’t used to that kind of food (I didn’t drink, I don’t like using calories on empty things like beer) I was so violently ill last night at about 9:00. I forget that that’s how my body responds to the diet and after it happens, I wonder why in the heck I subject myself to feeling like that just to eat something like cheese and crackers.

Guess what? I was still up and in the gym by 6:00 this morning. Gotta get that workout in. It wasn’t probably the best workout I’ve had, but I pushed myself to the best of my ability and went back full force on the diet today. Really don’t want to feel like that again any time soon!