“Go-time” quickly approaches…I’m scared.
I am 2 weeks out from cleaning up my diet and 4 weeks out from starting the full-blown process for next season. And you know what? For the first time today, I’m scared. I have spent an entire year building to make me the best I can be on stage this season and what if I fail at the diet? I can work out until I’m blue in the face, I’ll work out until all the muscles in my body are screaming in pain, but last season I failed on the diet.
I am so scared it is going to happen again. I can say now that my mindset has never been better. I am going to take the experience of last season and learn from it and push because of it. I don’t want to stand on stage disappointed again with my placing, because I know I can do better. And I know that I have built muscle in the past year - I just hope I have alse built mental strength.
What’s the worst part? This season is going to be right before my wedding. I am getting married 6 days after my last show. How is it that I think I can do this and still be ready for my wedding? I’m so focused on competing now that I don’t think too much about the wedding. Not that everything isn’t done, because it is - set, booked, have my dress etc. But I worry sometimes because I am not bridezilla. Maybe I should be just a little more. I am more like competitorzilla. I want blood this season and I want to win. I’m going to put blood, sweat and tears into making myself the best I can be when I get on that stage in the fall. Bring it on…
November 13, 2007 at 6:37 am
Sounds like you are ready for the challenge. I know you can succeed at your goals. Remember that everyone on BB will be cheering for you. Good luck. We will be watching.
Mark
November 13, 2007 at 6:38 am
You’ve got great goals and a great work ethic. Don’t worry about the whole process. Take it one day at a time and stick to it - you’ll be great!
November 13, 2007 at 6:41 am
Use that fear as a motivator! You look GR8. Walk on that stage like you own it! And good luck with the wedding too.
November 13, 2007 at 10:45 am
Thanks for all the encouragement. You’ll be watching my journey and I’ll be needing support!
November 16, 2007 at 8:33 am
Hey you will rock the casbah. One you were down on yourself about the last shows you did, two you’re getting married 6 days after, three you want this and you love the sport, that’s right "sport" you’re an athlete and real athletes don’t like to waste there time training for nothing so doing well with the diet will be no problem and if you hit a road block I’ve met your support team and they will be at your side helping you along the way. You know you have it…… use it.
C