As I walk amongst the night with my fists clenched so tight. Anger bottled up like a monster ready to fight, walking a path of fury with nothing left in sight. The mindless thoughts awaken the deception from the makers of this creation.
To all those who ask how I got to where I am. I got this far by all fitness and nutrition, no surgeries. As for how I kept focus and dedicated? I desire a certain body style, that image is painted in my mind. I did this for me, no one else. I wanted it so much!!!
Indeed alot did not and still do not believe in me, but I believe in myself. If you desire something so deeply, nothing will stop you from making it happen. A lot of anger and hurt went into this physique. Between my passion for music and the uncontrolable addiction I have for fitness, this has created an unstoppable BeAsT.
So many pheonominal bodies on here that I admire. My admiration lies within all those who have succeeded, are succeeding and taking the first step in succeeding towards there fitness goals. My body style I create and sculpt for my needs and what I want.
My advice to those starting out. Make this about no one but you!!! You control your passion and destiny. Do not keep comparing yourself to others. Do the exercises, training etc that works for you and gives you the results you want. I have different exercises, training, nutrition etc. that I do because it works for me, gives me my results I want.
You have the power!!!!!!
No ****ing Mercy!!!!
$$ MneyDiVa $$$$
I have come, I have climbed, I have conquered!
Starting out at 230 lbs three years ago and now weighing in at 140 lbs with muscle definition, toned body and lean. Killing the last of this fat and working on the body I desire. Along the way I have found myself with an uncontrolable addiction leading to a passion that my whole mind, body and soul go into. Now I am looking into competing possibly. Not so much to win, but if so hell yea and will strive to win: but more so to see where I am ranked. If it is either top or lower ranking, still will know and have no doubt in my mind that I have come, I have climbed and I have conquered. The pain, the burn, the sweat the blood the tears feed my love for a begining of all things to come. No mailto:F@$Kin Mercy!!! my motto I live by. Cheers to all my friends here on bodybuilding and especially to all those making that first step towards your fitness goals. I have the utmost admiration for you all!
To start off I would like to thank all my friends and followers for your kind words, support, motivation and inspiration that you give to me. Since there are too many to send an individual message too each. I will just make one big post to all of you and everyone on body building. I have passed my knowledge and experience to others as well as others passing theirs to me. In my oppinion you can never know everything. It is a continual learning process which makes it that much more intriguing, competitive, and addicting. To all my friends you are all looking just as smoking Hot and Sexy too. You are ALL putting in the hard work and effort too and its being taken notice.....Cheers Eveyone!!! To my friends that are getting a bit frustrated, you have it. Now allow yourself to SEE it. You all know I am just a message away on that.
Again thank you to everyone, and keep up the good work as well......No Mercy!!!
I just wanted to to write to my friends and followers and thank you for your compliments and take a moment to let you know that I do read over your updates etc. as well. Some are just starting towards the path to a better fit healthy lifestyle, and others who are defineitly already succeeding in their goals. As well as to my pro friends who already got it down. Everyone looks great!!! Love the personalities of all the ones I have gotten the opportunity to message with. Keep up the good work, I enjoy flocking amongst all you other fitness / bodybuilders.....
Frustrations build, stress acumilates, anger awakens. I am looked at as an idol and inspiration to many, so to break can not ever happen. Or you let down, fail, give up, show the impossible. In order to release these unwanted feelings, emotions, thinking. I must take myself to the place where I am heard without speaking or bothering no one.
My headphones on as I do some light stretching in the locker room. I stand before the mirror taking my eyes closed taking deep controled breaths. As soon as I walk out the locker room doors no one exists but my body, my focus, and yes my music. I have my favorite music that I listen too, I rock out and sing quietly to myself. I dont care who is watching, starring, laughing or whatever. I am not their for them, I am their for me. I have all those feelings of despair that are just waiting to unleash. I always start with my cardio, jogging my mind fills with the anger. I start running faster and faster. I keep running until I feel as though I can not breath. Take a min break and take my level speed down. My heart rate slows from about to pop out my chest and the anger fills my head again. Again running faster.
After my cardio I move to my free weights, starting my sets and reps. My mind then starts to fill with all the frustrations. I add more reps or maybe another set or both. As I stare in the mirror watching myself struggle wuth the final bit. My muscles are burning and shaking to the point I dropped the weight because I could not lift anymore. I sit for a min control my breathing, listen to my music empower through me. I get up again. Not good enough, and my mind starts again with the anger.
My anger, frustrations and stresses are released on myself......
Thank you to those who requested me as friends, and those who took the time to accept my friend request. A lot of you I look at as my mentors, reason being why I do not want to categorize certain ones on a list who inspire me. Not only the ones with the ripped and cut bodies. But the ones who are just starting out. The intermediate, advanced and pros. You all inspire me... keep me motivated and teach me continually no matter how much I have learned already. I still always learn something new and I have such a passion for it. So I will let bodybuilding.com list all that inspire me, which is all of you. I don't think I can put everyone on here under that list any ways...lol
I just wanted to show my appreciation to all of you. Especially to the ones who don't think they inspire anyone or might be a little self conscience. You have one fan here. I didn't always look like this and I am still pushing for more as well.....
MneyDiva here entering my first blog after laying low on the site just ordering supplements, checking out profiles, exercises, other blogs etc. Knowledge is power....
So as for me, I am not going to categorize who specifically inspires me. I envy every single one of you on this site, from the trainers to the ones just starting out. All the ones who are further advanced than I am, your bodies are incredible!!! So Hot!!! That is for the women and men. That is how we all connect in one certain way. We all know how much work, focus, dedication, determination etc goes into looking as incredible as you all do. And to the ones that are not quite as advanced yet. I still admire you, precisely because your working towards getting that body you want and learning what entails to getting it. The learning never ends. A lot of my mentors are here on body building. Needless to say all of you....I am now looking forward to keeping up to date on my body-space and keeping in touch with you all. I am getting ready to enter the competition, I would love to win of course like the thousands of others who entered. But really I am doing it more so for the adrenaline of being pushed to meet something in a time frame and knowing others are doing the same. Taking myself to new limits of exhaustion, pain, but yet satisfaction of knowing your accomplishments. So I am one of those ones out there with some but not all you other body builders that enjoys the pain, burn, exhaustion, collapsing, throwing up at points because you have pushed so hard and then right back at it. I have learned my body is able to sustain a lot more than what your mind may think. So I can indeed drill myself to no other.....
Any helpful tips on the dieting part for the the goals I have set forth on my body space would be helpful and much appreciated. Still working on mastering nutrition and diet.
To my competitors for the 12 week transformation, let the challenge begin can not wait to see everyone's results....No Mercy!!!!