31233.. uh huh

yep, you read that right.  i sell cocaine.  i have a whole fridge full of it.  mmmmm hmm.  curiosity killed the cat and i found out where to find that energy drink that was banned from 7-11s.  if you want some.. send me an email.  i give you good price my friend. tee hee.  it’s great going to the gym and having someone come up and ask "hey, can i get some cocaine?" and i look at them and say.. of course… 8.4 ounces for a buck fifty.  then whoever is on a macine next to me looks over confused and myself and the buyer just chuckle away.

PS, ITS NOT REAL COCAINE DUMMY.. ITS AN ENERGY DRINK ..YAY MY SHIFT KEY WORKS again… dammit.

Wow, I haven’t written on this in a long time.  Here is the SHORT version of what’s been going on.

Moved to a new house.. YAY!
Decided to compete in two shows.  October 11 and 18th.  My coach thinks I can do it and I trust him completely.
Haven’t had many carbs lately.. got migranes at first.. got over that.. all better… YAY!

Other than that, I’m just lifting, doing cardio, eating.. ALL THE TIME, and drinking loads of water.

Had a couple more photoshoots. - now doing more work with that.. Yee Haw!

Had a couple posing classes for figure competitors. Those are really neat.  I sweat in two minutes just standing there. 

That’s about it.  Life is good!  Work is good!  I can’t wait till my legs lean out a bit.. that will be nice.

Hope anyone who reads this is safe, happy and healthy.

Tiffany  =)

I got dunked again yesterday and in 28 DAYS with the guidance of my coach Sean Calder and. A big chunk of persistance this is what I did.

Weight: 176 to 168
Bodyfat: 27.7 to 20.7
Fat: lost 12 pounds
Lean mass: gained 4 pounds

I almost did a little dance for joy when I got the results!!! That same day the people at the desk at my gym said that they saw my back was coming in. I was like Woo Hoo!! It’s not all in my imagination!!

Wa wa we wa!  I have been working hard on my diet and training and made some awesome progress in how I look.  But that’s not all!  My weight has not been changing as much as it used to… BUT!  My strength has gone WAY WAY up!  It’s incredible!  So I don’t feel too down and out that I’m not dropping pounds like I was in the beginning of this project.  I have read in a few places and have been told that you must grow stronger before you can grow your muscles.. and after growing those you burn fat more quickly.  Right now I’m on a mission to drop fat and grow some muscle.. ha.. aren’t we all.  Eventually when it gets closer to contest time I’m going to go on a fat killing frenzy and probably lose some muscle during that.. so right now if people are lookin at me a little funny in the gym when I’m trying to not make faces when lifting heavy things.. I don’t mind.  Some day they will see me lookin all good later.. well anywho.. I’m rambling.   But as far as progress goes… that’s whats new.  I’m down even more pant sizes… and I’ve given up on shopping for clothes until I reach where I want to be.   YAY for being a size 9/10 from a 16/15!! WOO HOO!!!!   HAPPY TIMES!

I know that I have made significant changes so far and I know I will make more.  Unfortunatly I need more motivation after I see results.  The guys at my local  MaxMuscle store suggested competing in figure… at first I didn’t think it was for me.  Running around overly tan in a bikkini around strangers just doesn’t seem inviting.  Over the next few weeks thoughts of competing crossed my mind.  Eventually I realized that I will not do the best I can unless I have someone to beat or a goal to reach.  I read articles on this website and yep… eventually I decided I’ll do it. 

 Telling my family about my decision was easier than I expected.  I felt like I was coming out of the closet or something.. but they were actually excited!  They have seen me struggle with my weight for years and know that I will work hard if there is something I want.  What I want this time, is to win.  Yes, I want to be in the best shape of my life.. but I want something to show for it.  I want to stand up there with the women who I have always been intimidated by and be judged on a level with them.  That will be, I’m sure, a turning point in my life.  I don’t care if it’s a tiny contest with three other women, I just want to say I did it… and I want to do it knowing that I have put forth my best work.

 Well, that’s it for now.  I’m excited!  The only downside is going out to dinner with friends and family drooling over their food.  Mmm…. oh man.  Italian food tonight… yeah.. my weakness…. but I was good!  I didn’t want to be, but now that I have a goal in mind it makes keeping on track even easier.  It’s a little victory whenever I successfully eat well all day.  Hey, every vicotory is great for me.  I like being happy.. who doesn’t?

Well, goooodnight!

Don’t let the title of this blog mislead you.  I know I have a LOT of work to do before I will feel comfortable with myself.  I’m posting pics of me in a bikini here only, nowhere else on the web, because I’m quite shy… and I’m hoping that a lot of you used to be fat too.  I know that I can loose weight, and quickly, so this time, I’m going quite hard. 

 If you look at my progress pictures, as far as my build goes and whatever, what’s good and what’s bad?  I’m just looking for some kind of analysis to help me figure out what to kick my ass into doing.  I’m losing fat like supa fast.. around 5 pounds  a week… but I feel like my legs are huge, and even when they’re leaner they’re going to look like giant Christmas Hams and continue to appear rather manly.  Is there anything I can do to make my legs more femanine?  Hmm??  I duno. 

I’m bored and just want some feedback on anything so I can convince myself I have a new goal other than quit being so fat.. *which I will continue to move toward*

Lately I’ve been stressed out, fighting with my boyfriend about stupid things like.. he doesn’t want me to take a belly dancing class.. big freakin deal.. he should be happy right?  Well, for the past few days I haven’t gotten any good sleep.  I stay up till 4am and then have to be up again at 7.. it really sucks.  It’s hurting my system so bad that my eyelid twitches.  *A sure sign of being stressed out.*  I don’t know if I should workout or sleep.  I know I need sleep, but after class today I just want to pass the f’ out.  Grumble Grumble.  To wait until I’ve got a regular.. oh no, I did not just pose that question to myself.  FINE, I will go to the gym.. no excuses.. ohh tired me.. blah blah blah.  Bah.  The things I do.

Curiosity killed the cat.. but satisfaction brought it back… so now it’s my turn.  I keep hearing that if you ever want to have an absolutly amazing body.. you have to be born with the right structure.  Well then, how do I know if I’ve got what it takes?  I doubt I’ll ever compete, but I’d like to know if I can have a body like the figure women. So if you’re bored, check my pictures, I don’t have anything skimpy, but I’m sure you can see how I am from the pictures I have posted.  Let me know your opinion.  Again, I’m curious.