31233.. uh huh

I know that I have made significant changes so far and I know I will make more.  Unfortunatly I need more motivation after I see results.  The guys at my local  MaxMuscle store suggested competing in figure… at first I didn’t think it was for me.  Running around overly tan in a bikkini around strangers just doesn’t seem inviting.  Over the next few weeks thoughts of competing crossed my mind.  Eventually I realized that I will not do the best I can unless I have someone to beat or a goal to reach.  I read articles on this website and yep… eventually I decided I’ll do it. 

 Telling my family about my decision was easier than I expected.  I felt like I was coming out of the closet or something.. but they were actually excited!  They have seen me struggle with my weight for years and know that I will work hard if there is something I want.  What I want this time, is to win.  Yes, I want to be in the best shape of my life.. but I want something to show for it.  I want to stand up there with the women who I have always been intimidated by and be judged on a level with them.  That will be, I’m sure, a turning point in my life.  I don’t care if it’s a tiny contest with three other women, I just want to say I did it… and I want to do it knowing that I have put forth my best work.

 Well, that’s it for now.  I’m excited!  The only downside is going out to dinner with friends and family drooling over their food.  Mmm…. oh man.  Italian food tonight… yeah.. my weakness…. but I was good!  I didn’t want to be, but now that I have a goal in mind it makes keeping on track even easier.  It’s a little victory whenever I successfully eat well all day.  Hey, every vicotory is great for me.  I like being happy.. who doesn’t?

Well, goooodnight!

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