Tiffany Forni.. uh huh

I know that I have made significant changes so far and I know I will make more.  Unfortunatly I need more motivation after I see results.  The guys at my local  MaxMuscle store suggested competing in figure… at first I didn’t think it was for me.  Running around overly tan in a bikkini around strangers just doesn’t seem inviting.  Over the next few weeks thoughts of competing crossed my mind.  Eventually I realized that I will not do the best I can unless I have someone to beat or a goal to reach.  I read articles on this website and yep… eventually I decided I’ll do it. 

 Telling my family about my decision was easier than I expected.  I felt like I was coming out of the closet or something.. but they were actually excited!  They have seen me struggle with my weight for years and know that I will work hard if there is something I want.  What I want this time, is to win.  Yes, I want to be in the best shape of my life.. but I want something to show for it.  I want to stand up there with the women who I have always been intimidated by and be judged on a level with them.  That will be, I’m sure, a turning point in my life.  I don’t care if it’s a tiny contest with three other women, I just want to say I did it… and I want to do it knowing that I have put forth my best work.

 Well, that’s it for now.  I’m excited!  The only downside is going out to dinner with friends and family drooling over their food.  Mmm…. oh man.  Italian food tonight… yeah.. my weakness…. but I was good!  I didn’t want to be, but now that I have a goal in mind it makes keeping on track even easier.  It’s a little victory whenever I successfully eat well all day.  Hey, every vicotory is great for me.  I like being happy.. who doesn’t?

Well, goooodnight!

So today… after work.. I decide to go to the gym.  Yeah, I’m all changed and ready to go.. pull into the parking lot.. and decide to recline for a minute and shut my eyes.  Well.. an hour later I get a phone call from my boyfriend that wakes me up and I realize I had been sleeping for over an hour!  I bet the people at the gym think I’m a hobo that lives out of my car.  Suuure, she drives a nice car, but she lives in it!  Yeah, feels wierd.  I found that there were a few people staring at me when I woke up.  It was incredibly well… uncomfortable.  Why does that happen?  Last time I lost a lot of weight and was working out prety hard I began to be narcoleptic.  I could feel myself getting tired then I’d have to pull over if I was driving to sleep.  I’d wake up hours later not realizing how long I had slept for.  I don’t know why this happens.  If anyone has an idea, I’d like to know.  Am I not eating enough?  I had half a sandwich in the car right before the gym.  I don’t want to get that crazy sleeping thing happening. 

 Well, after the gym I feel like I’ve been givin a shot of crack or whatever.. I’m hyperactive, I feel great, and I want to do anything that walks…  w00t!  I love working out.. and should probably get to it before falling asleep in my car again.