Bring it on…
First let me start by saying Merry Christmas to all and to all a Happy New Year. This has been one hell of a ride so far. Lets take a look back into what I call "my life." In January I seperated from my wife for eight years. We have been having alot of issues and I thought best that we throw in the towel. By May we were divorced. I have to admit its not easy for me to give up, but both her and I are better for it now. Then came along the next Mrs Sgttuff13. Actually she came along in October of the previous year. We started dating shorlty after my break-up. She is the one in the pictures on my profile. Well let me tell you a little something about my BabyGirl, she saved my life. When my divorce was in its closing stages I thought for sure that I was a terrible person for ruining so many lives. I started to go into a downward sprial and hated myself something aweful. She picked me up and showed me what I really am, a loving and devoted father, boyfriend, soldier and friend. She is the drive that pushes me harder and harder everyday. When I am ready to give up, she is there to inspire me and keep me grounded. My kids do the same but by different means. We got engaged 2 weeks before I deployed. We converse everyday and write as much as possible. Now the holidays are upon us and its really hard to stay motivated. Being away from the kids and her are enough to drive you mad. However, with each passing day, I am one day closer to seeing them again. The four of them are my purpose in life, my drive and my passion. They are the ones that push me in the gym. I want to be ther for them for as long as possible. The kids go to the gym with me back home when they can and inspire me to no end. They always tell me "Daddy flex your muscles." Which I do, along with a funny face to get them going. Tiffany aka BabyGirl, inspires me in the gym by her kind words of encouragement and by her eyes. She is truly my best feature. She knows just what to say to keep me going.
For instance, just the other day I was ready to throw in the towel and give up again. Not on her, but on my fitness goals. Why is it that people have to make fun or crack jokes at the unknown. Maybe they are to ****ing lazy or even jealous that I am doing what I love and they are not. Maybe its becaudse they have no idea what drive and motivation are. It could be simply that they are just *******ss that have to torment others to make themselve feel better. This happened to me on Christmas Eve. I am very insecure about my appearence. It took alot for me to post the pics on this page because I am not like the guys you see here. I have no 6-pack, I am not ripped to the gill. I am just me. So when I was confronted and slammed on by my peers, I retreated. The pics are now off the page, so others cannot make me feel as they did. This is where she saved me. She reminded me of what and who I am. That the only opinion that matters is my own. And that if I gave up, I would regret it forever. She told me she is proud of me and that she loved me. And no matter what she is behind me.
Needless to say, I am still here, pushing harder, with more drive than ever before. So look out 2008, here I come, you had better be ready for the ass whooping that I am going to lay on ya. To all the naysayers or ****wads out there that push people around to get there rocks off, BRING IT. You are not as strong as we are, you have no honor, no respect, no disipline. Take a long hard look at yourself before you come into our house. You will lose.
I apologize for rambling on, but I needed to vent. We will see you all in the gym next time. Once again Merry Christmas and A Happy New Year to all. As always keep pushing stay strong and be Tuff……
December 25, 2007 at 11:14 pm
Hey bro, I know what you mean about having a savior in you life. My wife now did pretty much the same thing after my divorce. It is amazing that someone can find the good things and know just how to lift you up and give you that extra push.
As for the ass clowns who want to give you shit. Tell them to go screw off. Your peers are probably fat and lazy and only pass their PT test because they know a PTL who fudges the numbers. Keep it up man. Don’t worry aobut what others may say. You have made a decision to make a change for the better so stick to it and tell everyone who doubts you to suck a fat one. Get those pictures back up and be proud of what you are accomplishing. We are a different breed all together. Not everyone can do what we do and it takes an I don’t give a **** attitude sometimes to do it.
Sorry for the long response but I hate to see good people such as yourself get sidetracked our start having doubts from small minded people who have nothing better to do. Stay strong man and stick to it. There are a lot more people who have faith in you than you realize. HUA!!