12weekhardbody’s BodyBlog

My surgery is scheduled fro November 4th.  Unfortunately i am going to be put to sleep.  At first i was terrified but I am feeling more and more confident as the days go on. I found a lump(?) in my side a couple of months ago so I am going to have it removed as well as some loose skin from abs.  I am also going to have my abs tightened.  

I started seeing a therapist after the birth of my younger son a few years ago because I thought I had postpartum depression (turns out I was just exhausted).  I think everyone deserves a therapist like mine.  I always feel more self-assured when  I see her .  At my appointment yesterday we discussed things that calm me.  She is going to make me a "guided visualization" CD and focus on the positive outcome of my surgery, healing, and ways to calm myself.  

I am excited to see my results and can’t wait to feel confident in and out of clothes.  I will finally be able to see what my lifting and cardio have produced (other than loose skin).

Anybody have any advice about surgery?  If so, I’d love to hear it.

A few years ago my mom had an eye infection.  Since she couldn’t see, I had to take her to the eye doctor.  She had never been there so I had to fill out her information.  For the sex portion, I wrote "YES, PLEASE!!".  It also asked if she had ever had any surgeries.  So I wrote that she had her junk removed (Hysterectomy).

Fast forward to last year.  She went to the same doctor to get lasik.  When the nurse took her back she said, "I’ve been dying to see what you look like!".  

Luckily, my mom has a sense of humor and just laughed.

I have an appointment to see a surgeon next week.  I want to have skin removed from this bod.  I have ****loads of it on my stomach.  It doesn’t look too bad until I sit.  That’s when I have to tuck the **** down in my pants.  Not attractive at all.  I also want to have some removed from my legs.  I know, lucky me, right?  My legs look smooth when i pull the extra skin up.  So hopefully that can be done as well.

The weird thing about the surgery is that i do NOT want to be put to sleep.  I want an epidural instead.  I know that I can recover quicker if I can think straight and that just won’t happen if I am f’ed up from anesthesia.  I also don’t want to take any major pain killers.  Give me some tylenol or advil and I’ll be fine in more ways than one .