01012007’s BodyBlog

I find myself heading back towards working out late at night. I have ready access to the hardcore weight room and I can play my music without headphones on if I want to. I can turn the television on any channel I want and walk around and not worry about my gym shirt being a little too see through after I sweat and hairy legs,etc.  Plus I now have a new rule. If I eat past nine o’ clock I must go the gym after work. Lately, work has me more wound up than usual and I feel compelled to burn off the stress of nursing. I don’t want to bring that home to my husband and animal companions.

Anyway, yesterday was a great workout because my husband and I got into a ’silent fight’ where we don’t speak to eachother because we’re both depressed. I get into one of those ‘I hate small towns and want to move back to NY’ moods. Working out helps put things in perspective and show me that what I really am feeling is a little self hate about not having children,etc. and missing my mother. I guess that’s why people who live long have their family close.

I tried a workout I saw on bb.com for legs for a sexy bumbum, not that I need it So I did it and made the weight a little heavier. I seem to respond better with heavier weights. Anyway, I warmed up for ten minutes on the elliptical then I rode the bicycle for twenty minutes while I texted back and forth with my husband! Shame on me. Anyway, I did dumbbell squats, deadlifts, lunges and calf raises with lots of stretching in between. Finally I wrapped it with barbell deadlifts at fifty pounds and twenty minutes on the elliptical.

The sauna session was amazing!

I was watching a longevity video on the iPhone whilst taking a late night elliptical nitecap! I tend to follow the advice of people that are over 100 years old LOL! One lady rides a bicycle for six miles before breakfast. I’ll see if I can post the video. Amazing! I rode my exercise bike for three miles then went for my morning coffee and internet session. I had grilled tofu on a bed of romaine with olive oil and apple cider vinegar. YUM.

I checked myself out in the mirror. I look good! I feel good too. Today I’m walking to the library and maybe to the gym. It’s gorgeous outside. I need to move to a place that has sun 365 days!

I had a ‘junk food’ afternoon but I survived. I just let the emotions flow through me because I found that resistance was making me even more depressed. Hindsight I should have called off from work but I’m one day away from being done with orientation. A feeling, a wave of depression came over me today and I struggled with work but once half the shift was over I felt a little better. I did do some exercises but not a full workout, fifteen minutes on the exercise bike.

So inspite of eating some junk foods and emotional depression wave, I made it through and am thanking God for that. I didn’t kill anyone at work and I made old folks who are sick feel better. That’s way more important than me getting upset about life and a dirty apartment.

I hit the elliptical almost immediately then I get a phonecall from my husband that the car broke down. There goes my pre-work workout to get jazzed up for nursing. My little workout still jazzed me up and is helping me fight off the flu that’s going around. Plus, I think I’m sensitive to environmental toxins like mold and exercise helps me with that. My last workout on Monday was totally off the wall because I had some stress of a feminine and family nature to offload. So I took an IRON pil and a SAUNA treatmeant. Loved it.

Today my period came early. I’ve not had a 25-26 day period in a while because of stress compounding fibroid issues. I wasn’t pleased that it happened at work, getting cramps while passing meds wasn’t CUTE AT ALL. However, I realise that losing weight and working out consistently must be resetting my body. I also am taking good vitamins and supplements. I just love the gym, love the sauna. I’m down to 160. My goal is to be 150 pounds by Mother’s Day weekend so I’m replacing a meal with a green smoothie every day. I was cutting out bread but it’s easier for me to replace stuff and just stopped eating it because I have something better. Seems to be working.

I’m feeling truly ageless. If I feel like an age, I feel like a teenager so  I guess God is giving me back all the years that abuse and depression stole from me. When you work around happy old people and sick old people, you feel young either way.

Well okay I didn’t overmedicate some little old lady with pain pills or give the wrong meds to the wrong patient. I had an egg salad sandwich when I stayed over for half of the 11-3 shift. i also had two graham crackers and tablespoon of peanut butter and a lemon ice. If I didn’t workout today and didn’t have such an insane busy evening shift, I think I’d be more upset. Not upset. I just know that tomorrow (or later today) is another day and there’s nothing that a day of clean healthy eating and an early morning dog walk wouldn’t fix! Time for me to get to bed seeing as how I’ve been up since eight am yesterday morning!

I measured my waistline this morning and I’ve not seen under 32 in a while! I’m also swearing off of bread from now till I go to visit my mother for Mother’s Day weekend so I can get into the fabulous FIFTIES. My weight goal is 140-145 which is what I weighed in seventh grade! Ideal is to have a healthy waistline, not so much weight. I am under 32 now and according to Dr.Oz that keeps most diseases away from me. My breast lumps have not grown in size and I’ve not had any spotting.

I’ve allowed myself a little fantasy of moving to Loma Linda, Ca but I realize that I must be happy wherever I am and not use small town boring life as an excuse for not achieving health goals,etc. Hence, I spent a lot of time outdoors and a lot of reading this weekend. Today I’m on my own as a nurse. Definately hitting the plates before I go to work!

I’m sitting here enjoying a leisurely lazy saturday morning. I went to the gym early to earn my right to eat my SILs delicious Easter nut roll. My weight is 161 and after a month of GNC Super Acidophilus Complex, the bathroom habit is wonderful and I feel light on my feet early in the morning. I promise myself to keep my holiday splurging to a minimum.
I happened to see a commercial for a new Bravo show. I think that’s Isaac Mizrahi who was saying "Confidence is the new black".  I walk very tall at work and think my bottom is good looking. I walk with a feminine swagger at the gym which motivates me to do more exercise wise.

Exercise and physical fitness is nature’s drug high.

I’ve been using my graduation gift to ME at the gym and I have to say it just confirms what I believe about using headphones. Music is truly inspirational. Youtube at the gym on the treadmill is amazing. I talk to my mother about her health and upcoming cancer surgery, check email, check facebook and look at health based youtube videos. I even glance at bb.com and all that.

I use an app called Streaks to check off every day I go to the gym. It’s kinda like Jerry Seinfeld’s ‘Don’t Break the Chain’. I used to use the dontbreakthechain.com website but I don’t even really log workouts here in bb.com! I’m satisfied marking  red X every day I go to the gym. Every day I do thirty minutes on the elliptical trainer, the old school one not the Precor. Doing thirty minutes on the old elliptical is like doing an hour on the Precor *LOL*
My streak is 6 days long and I’ve noticed that my legs recover faster. The biggest benefit is the recovery time of my heart and the serious euphoric brain buzz I get after my workout. I feel like I’m on drugs *LOL*