01012007’s BodyBlog

My mother endured a fifteen and a half hour surgery to remove cancer from her abdomen. She required many pints of blood and bags of hespan to bring her back from the brink. My mother is a true superwoman. I just got back from a ‘mental health’ weekend with her and my sister. They’re in my profile page picture.

After I returned from New York, the wheels started coming off the whole deal. My grades started dropping, I started withdrawing from people and most important I stopped working out. I would not wish the level of stress I experienced on anyone in the last two weeks. I thought the days of having panic attacks were over. Last week I had the nutter to end all nutters…of biblical proportions! I had to get away from it all, from nursing school, from my husband, dog,cat and financial challenges.

I spent the weekend riding my bicycle all over Manhattan and going to the beach. I ate healthful foods too and bought a bunch of supplements to nuture my body back to health, especially my brain. My professors were concerned about me and want me to go see a doctor. If there’s anything wrong with me it may be lyme disease which can surface during periods of extreme stress. I hope I don’t have it but compared to appendix cancer lyme disease seems like small potatoes.

Just finished a thirty minute full body workout outside, fifteen on the total gym and fifteen minutes of free weights. Tomorrow I go to the gym after clinicals. I’m glad I’m feeling better. It sucks to be sad and depressed. I’m glad I have good teachers who are helping me otherwise I might have gone a while longer without seeking help. I’m full of hope now something I didn’t feel last week. What a difference a weekend makes.