01012007’s BodyBlog

Yes I admit I’m one of those Catholics that don’t attend church regularly. Instead I helped my sister find a really good gym in New York, Xsport Fitness in Garden City, and we worked out on Easter Sunday. I go to the gym to speak to God and find peace within, esp. with my mother’s cancer challenge, my school-work issues,etc. My home gym got some new cardio equipment and I will turn on the tv and say the rosary right there while working out. I only do it if there aren’t a lot of people in the gym and at 7 in the morning there really isn’t.

I’ve started going back to the gym early in the morning. I find that works better in terms of getting in the daily workout. My goal is to do 45 minutes of cardio every day at the gym. During lunch I’m going to replace my YMCA workout and go trail walking and biking. Fortunately the school hour is 45 minutes and the trail is three minutes away from the school. I’ve changed my goal of weight loss to health gains. I think it’s more important to be healthy than slim. I think being healthy and slim go hand in hand though so I’m not saying I’m giving up on having a flat stomach. I think you all understand my point.

First of all, I’m hitting the iron more than ever. Today my instructors sent me home because they didn’t feel I could pay attention in class. If I was in their shoes, I think I’d send me home too. Anyway, I’m glad my instructors have faith in my academic/intellectual abilities. It was a long drive home. I’m all about the powernaps and when I woke up from my nap,  I was exhausted. I knew it was a mental thing. Found out that the docs F’ed up my mother’s treatment and hearing my mom has advanced GI cancer kept repeating and resonating in my head till today.

Up till recently I’d turn to food and self destructive behaviour to make myself feel better. Today I turned to the gym. I look forward to pumping iron and then relaxing in the sauna Russian style, a looong drawn out extravaganza of hot and ice cold showers and sipping fruit juices and eating protein bars and fresh grapefruits. Today I had the Super Arginine Power Stack with wheatgrass powder and a Cliff Builder Bar after my workout. I’m not hungry now. Later I’ll have half a papaya or something. I can actually see rib meat, I mean a for real muscle, not backfat and no arm waddle either. (Boy  I really need to update my pics and take down that tired, worn out semi nude thing.) The iron pillz (dumbbells, barbells and kettlebells) are good for what ails me right now because it gets the blood going and gets the hormones and endorphins going. My body releases its own natural drugs to make me feel better and I’d not endangering myself or society in the process.

The sauna is the icing on the cake. I go in there and sometimes I study but today I just relaxed. I did some EFT tapping for myself and my mother http://www.emofree.com and prayed for strength. I felt feeling refreshed and infused with God’s strength and full of faith. First time I felt not depressed. Exercise is good.

I’m one of the few…no the only woman that ever spends the majority of her time in the freeweight room with the fellas..ya know the highschool football team,etc.etc. So the day I walked in one guy said, hiya! How ya doing today? I said with a weak smile…fine…as fine as someone can be after finding out her best friend, my mother, had cancer. All I could think about was getting into the gym that day and working out my inner pain. I thought of a post I read off a now-closed yahoo forum about dedicating a weightlifting session to the heroes of 9-11. Anyway, I went in there to work my chest and shoulders and just kept lifting and lifting, adding weight and kept adding till I had enough. Sauna was the most gratifying it’s ever been. Just had to get that out because I’ve not posted in a while but I’ve been working out at the gym consistently for over a month and my gains show it.